Hi
I am Dave a compulsive gambler and I am a very healthy non religious spirtual person.
I walked in to the recovery program over 50 years ago.
I am over 31 years clean from Gambling.
People ask me if you have not gambled for so long why go to the meetings.
For me gambling indcated how emotionally vulnerable I use to be.
Only once I was able to abstain from gambling could I start healing process.
In my recovery the words right wrong good bad evil do not exist.
The recovery program would help me make much healthier choices in my life.
Since being in recovery I gave up smoking which was a very unhealthy habit.
Just smoking on its own cost me over 74,000 and adversely affected my health.
No one could stop me gambling that was going to be my own choice.
The gambling establishment never made me do any thing that I di dnot want to do.
The gambling establishment never made me I lied because I was living in so mch pain fear and frsutrations.
The gambling establishment never lied to my family I did that.
Being consumed by my addictions and obsessions was a very lonely life.
So for over 50 years the people in recovery helped me not only abstain but also heal my pains.
I walked in to the recovery afer causing my self so much pain.
I could not even be honest with my self.
I could have not done it on my own for sure.
During my recovery and healing I often heard the same things over and over again.
Then one day you get that light bulb moment in your mind when you fully understand different stages of our recovery.
The simple fact just for today I do not want or need to gamble.
Just for today I understand what my needs my wants and my goals are.
No more saying I have to, do I need to do some thing, do I want to do some thing, do I reduce my procrastinating today.
At the meeting I see and hear my self in other people.
Walking in to the recovery program I was so ignorant as to how unhealthy I use to be.
Money was never going to stop me gambling.
How much time do I put in to my recovery today.
Healing love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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