Hi I'm Kelly - hoping I've made th mental commitment to stop for real this time. Online slots is my poison, I've self excluded from most the biggies, got meds and lined up for counselling. Can't feel this way any more
Hi Kelly,congratulations on finding the mental commitment to STOP.Im sure you will find all the stories and posts from other members on this site inspirational (I know I have) It's definitely not an easy thing to admit or to live with being a compulsive gambler.The shame,the pain,the feeling of total utter helplessness is so very very hard to deal with.I have almost managed to lose everything in my life that I have ever loved and cared for.......and one way or another it's all down to gambling!
I only signed up to this sight a few days ago as I was and am so desperate to save myself from living my life with knowing I have "thrown it all away". At the moment I am struggling to save my relationship and family,I have managed to hit day 23 without gambling and I will confess now it's been without doubt the hardest 3 weeks of my life! I have been a cg for the best part of 27 years and I'm ashamed,so so ashamed.You will find its a very very testing time for you,I know I have.There was a time I NEVER would of believed I could have gone 27 hours let alone 27 days,I am so proud of it yet I know I have so so much further to go on this "gamble free" journey.Such a long way to go but I have never been so determined to succeed.
I hope you can find the determination and willpower within yourself to succeed too,I wish you all the best in your fight to rid yourself and your life of this illness because that what it is an illness!!
Good luck,steve
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