I'm addicted to gambling. Why? I tell myself the negatives and pitfalls all the time and there are many but it dont help. I tell myself the positives of how my life could be without my addiction but it dont help. I started gambling about 8 years ago. I raised my son and daughter from babies as a single parent. I had a devoted responsibilty to them. Then they went and grew up, flown the roost and began their own adult path. I can say that i'm very proud of them today. My responsibilties of everyday life changed then. I had so much time on my hands i thought playing poker online would be a good passtime. Only for a while though as poker sites introduced me to online casinos and my life hasen't been the same since. It ruined my life,
The depression is ruining everything i have to live for. I gamble every time i have money which leaves me struggling with life everyday. I feel as though life is pointless because i can't deal with this addiction which leaves me with a feeling of guilt and worthlessness. I used to say to myself "its ok because its only me i am responsible for". I can handle it. These days its more like why bother and whats the point of my life. Then the guilt of these thoughts make me feel like s**t because i would only hurt my children.
I just dont know anymore. I want my life back.
Welcome to the forum ken,
You have made a massive step acknowledging your issues with gambelling. Great credit is deserved coming to the site.
I have been an addict since I was young. Gambeling has always been the forefront for me. Existing has been my cycle for years.
All because of the thrill of the chase. I have always been chasing that's for sure.
Your kids sound like your world and you have done so much I am sure for them over this time. They will need you until you grow old.
taking online casinos away will make you such a better person. I have k9 protection installed on my laptop to stop me from hitting the online sites. It's a free site block and will limit access to hit poker and casino sites. Get someone you trust to change the password.
Opening up to people also helps.There are lots of good posters on this site with great advice so find out what works for you to beat this horrible way of life.
I wish you the best of luck in kicking the online sites and become the better person you long for.
Thanks you Lordlucan for your encouraging words and advice. I wish you all the best too.
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