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Permission to check in ! Sorry mixer I’ve not been able to check in regularly due to having a normal life lol ! 338 GF DAYS 🙂 bring it lng ! Thank you for keeping this thread solid AF!

Sars

I have gambled again today. I am so, so sorry. I guess I underestimated how powerful this addiction is. I would give anything to freed myself from it. I am not in a good place right now but here I am determined to try again

thanks for the roll call mixer, you have taken on quite a job here and I am very grateful for you time , focus and efforts. I wish you a great gf day along with all the other fine people on this thread who got caught in the web and are getting free. I have to remember that the web (gambling) is a sticky web and the spider is waiting for it's prey. It's easy to get fancy with analogies and poetic too; but this addiction is serious indeed. The aftermath is not easy to navigate. And a return to gambling is not possible to navigate. It all in the day to day and day to day is very challenging without somewhere to run and hide. The challenge is easier than the aftermath of a slip or relapse or test ( as we sometimes try to call it). 🙁 I'm sad that there is so much suffering around cg. Sending some compassion out to everyone and myself. tara2

Ineffable my friend I hear alarm bells ringing. Please take care and keep going forward.

Like many of us you have good days and bad days, you recognise your vulnerabilities and are aware of the dangers that are never far away. I sincerely believe you have suffered enough with compulsive gambling.

You have shown maturity and wisdom in your recovery. Handing over finances to your sister, blocking gambling sites, running to marathon standard, swimming, cycling, healthy eating, moderate alcohol intake, professionalism at work and social interaction with work colleagues.

When not gambling you are a private person but seem to at peace with yourself and reasonably contented. This is very far removed from the horrendous gambling periods you have experienced.

Wishing you well...stephen

14 days and going strong. few small urges being out of my own town and out of my exclusion territory, but was with the missus and was able to block them out of my mind... back home now and in the saftey zone!! roll on 21 days!!

Checking in having had 13 days gamble free 🙂

Checking in on day 46 , need to keep this on track stay strong enjoy your week everyone

Afternoon all

Just checking in on day 21 of attempt #3!

Feeling good atm, mainly because the weathers keeping me out and about fishing/walking etc so thats taking my mind off things. Looking at moving house, going for something bit bigger and nicer area. Cant see me getting mortgaged as the credit scores took a massive hit recently due to my relapse, which could hinder our chances but well see how we go on.

Gonna go to GA meeting Sunday at the local church as partners pushing me that way, been to doctors and theyre gonna sort me some sessions with CBT.

Hope this nice weather continues!

Hey mitch, Your post sounds inspiring to me. Just being able to be out in nature and to have the house and an option to move.

I am on the edge as far as how much mental juggling and life details I can cope with. So many things showed up all at once for me. I do have to consider how my continued cg (up until about 2 months ago) effected where I am now in life. I think that I was unaware of my body and overworked myself , also ignored needing some down time due to having wasted my earning and much of my savings, leaving me feeling desparate and hooked into only working working working with no reward or downtime. Always on edge and catching up or making a plan of how to deal with losses and my state of health due to those losses. So here I am, I am responsible for my overwork injury. I won't get into all the detail of what's on my plate but I will say that I called a help line last eve. because I found it hard to cope with all the mental activity around my situation. I feel really tired and drained. I know that I can recoup. It's a matter of time and focus along with learning to be able to be okay in the moment within all of this. I can and we can do this. In my later years , as they seem to be starting now as I am in my fifties, there are many simple dreams that I have for myself. I hope that they come true. tara2

Checking in on Day 10.

Hi all

I have made a return, it’s a tough one as I did really well then really messed up over xmas and up until 2 days ago. I’m here to start fresh and am on day 2 and am looking forward to staying gf, but for now one day at a time.

Hope you all have a lovely gf day.

Athena

Checking in on 181 days gamble free. Supposed to be debt free on Tuesday next week having cleared nearly 6 k of debt but I miss calculated interest and thought I'd get the interest rebate from paying a loan early and my car broke (ffs) this will mean I'll still owe £400 and will clear that the following pay day!!! So freaking chuffed with my progress 🙂

Good Evening

I’ve had a turbulent couple of months returning to gambling and found it difficult to stop.

I’ve wasted a fair bit of money again but I’ve finally decided enough is enough and I’m here to give it my best effort again. Hats off to you Slot Fool - your post makes me want to follow in your footsteps. I’ve plenty of debt but when I’m not gambling I pay it off regularly each month. But when I am gambling I’m also adding to my long term debts.

Wish I could listen to my rational self all the time and realise I cannot win. Gambling will only cause me pain and misery, anxiety and disappointment and more debt !

Best wishes to you Athena and I’m just one day behind you in your fresh start. I look fwd to following your journey one day at a time.

Mixer I hope I can rejoin ?

BDF

Evening all, 4D checking in for the week 245 days x

daniel x

Good morning all!

This is my first ever comment/post on here, today marks my 20th day GF, with hopefully many many more to come! Hold your heads high that we can beat this!