Angel From Montgomery

Hi diary,

Just got home a few minutes ago. Long day at work.. glad to be finished. Looking forward to trick or treaters. Crossed off another gamble free day on my calendar. Happy Halloween!! 😀 -joan

Joan.

A club membership for life, sounds good to me, count me in.!!!!!

Glad you dodged that other bullet.

Just for today, my friend enjoy that pumpkin.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hey, thanks for popping in Duncs and for the words of encouragement. Much appreciated.

Out to work soon. Crossed off another gamble free day on my calendar and do you know what? Time is flying!!! 😀 No intention of gambling. Have had some wierd dreams with gambling themes -- not of me winning though. More like getting trapped in Vegas with no money and no way to get home. It was horrible. My brain is finally figuring out what a nightmare gambling really is!! It is dead to me I tell you. I have turned my back on it for good!!! Not complacency.. Resolve... Have a great day everyone. Stay strong. I will too. -joanxx

Thanks for the post Joan. Takes a while for are brains to kick back in to the reality of it all but when it does it feels great. Glad your going so well and so strong. Keep it up.

Time flies when you are gamble-free.

Once you have conquered the boredom aspect when leading a gamble-free life the world's your oyster!

NT

Morning Joan,

Really lovely to read your post today! I think removing gambling is a massive psychological battle and it can take a long time to gain the upper hand! However, it can be done, we can wrestle the control away from the addiction! We can turn that addiction from a huge monster into a little fly that at times can be really irritating but ultimately is just a fly so we can swat it away!

It seems you are now dealing with the fly and not the monster that my friend is true progress and providing you remain on guard and positive you will only continue to move forward from here!

Well Done 🙂

Flagg

Thanks so much Flagg and NT. Your support means alot to me.

Well, another hectic day ahead but, crossed off another gamble free day on my calendar. Those crosses are starting to add up!! I've had a very wild ride over the last 90+ days. Alot of emotional turmoil. My compass was just spinning! Flagg and NT you are right. I have landed on my feet in the land of the rational. I can see clearly now what was once a blurry mess. Anyway, no time to dwell. Forward I go-- never back. Sounds like someone I know.. hmm .. 😀 Mr. Duncs perhaps?.. hmm. Have a great day everyone. Will have more time to post over the weekend. Stay strong. I will too. -joanx

Hiya Judy,

Well, there is sooo many people on here and it took me a bit of time to stumble upon your diary. I read your opening thread and I too felt the pain. That was intense, and wow, how far have you come, "alway's forward and never back™ "(sorry Duncs..lol)

We all use Duncan's phrase cause it makes sense. He will be written in the Wikepidia, people will write this phrase in years to come! Hehe. Dotty, Shiny and Charls will be dancing naked when it happens... (sorry Gent's)..Hehe

Well, anyway Joan, dont let them urges get to ya, you know your there..

Have a great weekend, and nice to finally meet you...

JP (Pete)

Joan.

I think today you should take a step back and ponder this.

Did I turn my back on gambling?? or do I stand to face it,I can see the eye of the storm,I see it's destruction,I will stare it in the eye,It will bring me peace to understand I can see it in all it's glory and today just for today I will live in harmony with it!!!!! just for today I will win,with those three words "No BET today"

Joan I see it,with more clarity each day,I take so much pleasure in seeing those lightbulb moments they inspire greatly,

Joan my dear friend be proud you did not turn your back,for it to creep up upon you,you stood and stared it square on and for today the most important day, You Won!!!

Keep making the choice,I will be fortunate to continue to be inspired.

Stepping forward never back Duncs compulsive gambler No Bet Today.

Never ever amazes me, Duncs!

You can do it , you are there already, just keep coming on here, we are all here for you!

Pete

Hi Joan,

Ur last post was gr8 2 read, u r doing brilliant 🙂

I am sooo happy that u r ok after the hurricane!

Have a gr8 wknd xx

Thanks Duncs, Jungle Pete and Charlotte!! Words of encouragement really add to the positive momentum!! 🙂

Which is a segue into my next thought... I need to get better at posting on other diaries. I do feel that this is an important part of recovery, and I am feeling the weight of my selfishness these days. All I can say, is that it really is a process. In the beginning, for me, it was/is all about me. I spent a long time sifting through a lot of "stuff" in an effort to sort out what to keep and what to toss. I was watching an episode of "Hoarding - Buried Alive" on TV last night, and thought... hmm.. my mind felt like that for awhile. Stuffed to the ceiling with junk -- not able to tell what's what. Embarrassed by the cr** falling out of me everytime I opened up the door. Wondering how I got that way.. how did I let this happen?? That is behind me now. So, now I will work on reading other diaries and posting as many words of support as I can. I have also learned that it is just as important to stay focused on my own recovery b/c reading and posting can become exhausting. It's a balance really. Anyway, crossing off another gamble free day on my calendar today --and look!! It's Saturday and not an urge in the sky!!!! Have a great day everyone. Stay strong. I will too. -joanxxx

Crossed off another gamble free day on my calendar. Had my 4 year old niece over last night for a "sleep over". Lord have mercy.. LOL. I'm still recovering. What a joy though. To her everything in this world is so new. Something to explore or wonder about or ask 500 million questions about. LOL. I adore that little soul! Anyway, have a great Sunday everyone. Will catch up on Flaggs thread tomorrow!! Keep going strong! -joanxx

joan

carl

hey Joan...

found myself a ledge with a hot water bottle...lol...

You sound in good spirits Joan and recovering from the whizzy energy of a 4 year old ???

Its life Joan...but not as we know it...lol

I can feel your deterninatiion from your posts and can see a good busy time for you in the lead up to Xmas..guessing you and your mum are finding a miiddle lane and your first Xmas all together??

keep posting hun and hoping the clean up over there is going ok...lots on news here about the elections.

hugs

R and D xxxx