Angel From Montgomery

I am so hoping this is the right song as love the lyrics.

http://youtu.be/DVuX22LO2Hg

I identify so much with what you said in last entry. Nobody stops me but me as in the past could always find the way and means when my f*** you head was on and used to go to big races like the Derby in England just for the occassion and not interested in gambling on line either thankfully.

Life isn't like a 'box of chocolates' it's more like a huge big dipper ride and I guess some of us just spend more time riding up to the top than enjoying the best bits but they are well worth it when we get there.

Still waving and sending hugs across the ocean from a wet windy riverbank.

xxx

Well hey girl and can relate to the banning thing. Hell they never boot your a-ss and I guess why would they toss out their bread and butter. Lol yeah guess were the same in the way we're alone with our funds and no one to take them over and could care less about the sports betting too. I like that instant thrill of knowing I won or lost and hell if I had to sit through a whole football game or whatever to get that thrill I wouldn't finish watching I think. Lol lol lol

Yup guess its put one foot in front of the other one and continue on in this quest.

Hey Joan,

Hope your doing ok. Stay strong, you can do it. Don't give up on that picture on your mirror, you and P our going to be there someday. Maybe I'll drive down and join you two for a nice glass of wine under those stars. Get back up on that horse girl, and ride into the sunset!

Chiacgoguy

Thanks Rainbows, Broken, and Chicago!

Hi Diary,

Happy St. Paddy's Day! I don't drink the hard stuff anymore but, have some great memories of some really great parties. lol! Thanks to my friends at gc you really lifted my spirits today -- and you're right Chicago I need to just get back in the ol' saddle. I can do this; I just got a little stuck on stupid the other night. It happens. We are holding onto our tax returns with both hands!! God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I put on reruns of Rosanne because it always makes me laugh and what episode comes on?? The one where they go to Vegas!! JEEZ!! Oh well. No poor me today. I just got finished washing all of the windows and vacummed every room in the house. I'm almost too tired to write. I will probably be back later -- sticking close to the diaries for the time being. Taking it one day at a time. -joanxx

Good Morning Diary:

today is the start of Day 3. I'm feeling ok. I am keeping myself very busy. How I spend my time is something I have the most control over. I cannot change the establishment and the constant bombardment of advertisement. I am responsible for my aging mother's care so cannot expect her to look after our finances. I have to be a full fledged grown up. I am aware of my character flaws and that gluttony is an issue. I have an idea about why I sometimes go crazy. The crazy I choose might be better than the crazy I did not choose for myself since what happened to me happened during a time when I was small and depended on others to provide me with safety. I am not looking for sympathy. This is my diary and from time to time I choose to take stock. I remind myself today that I have done pretty well for myself all things considered. I am aware that some have and have had it even worse than me. Today, the only day that belongs to me the only day that matters I am aware of my shortcomings and in spite of them have hope. I don't expect this journey of mine to go along text book style. I am a woman capable of doing the very right things and sometimes the very wrong things. Today, I relish in my humanity regardless because there is nothing better than waking up in the morning to realize that I had been given yet another chance to do the right thing. -joanxx

Yo,

Thank you !!!

Shiny xxxx

Thanks for your post Joan.

I have changed my name from Stay strong to Happiness, because that is my goal for my new diary.

I often read your diary when I posted before on my previous diary. Thanks for your support.

Happiness x

Yeah guess all we'll ever have is today to work with and the past is nothing but the sounds of our footsteps moving forward. Keep pushing forward girl and knock that gambling bast-ard on his or her a-ss.

Hi Joan,

thanks for your lovely post xx

I haven't heard back yet, I'm like a teenager waiting for a boy to ring me!!!!

Well done on day 3 - as you rightly say, the only day that really exists is today. Make it a good un!

f x

Hey Joan,

Thanks for commenting on my poem, much appreciated, I'am going to start working on another one. Congrats on getting right back in that saddle, you can do it girl!

Chicagoguy

Hi Joan,

It takes a lot of strength 2 come back here and admit a slip, I know u can do this I believe in u!

Stay strong and keep going!

I am always here 4 u if u need me xxxxxx

Hi Joan,

Thinking about you and sending you huge hugs across the pond. Just for today you made the right choice that's all that matters , don't let that devil beat you up anymore, you are worthy, you are worth it, what's done is done, little baby steps forward with your gamcare buddies holding your hand all the way.

Take care

Blondie xxx

Hey Joan,

Hope your doing well, this is my small way of thanking you for all your support to me, and I know your going through a tuff time.

(RIDE INTO THAT SUNSET)

I WILL BEAT THIS ADDICTION

THAT CAUSED SO MUCH INFLICTON

ITS TIME TO GIVE IT A GOOD LICKING

SO IT STOPS TRICKING

THIS IS A WAR

I'AM READY TO BATTLE

BRING IT ON

I'AM IN MY SADDLE

I'AM GONNA THROW MY LASSO

WITH A TWIRL

AND PULL LIFE BACK IN

ON A WHIRL

SOMEDAY I'LL RIDE INTO THE SUNSET WITH P

AND WERE GOING TO JUST SIT BACK AND SEE

ALL THOSE STARS

SHINNING SO BRIGHT

I KNOW I HAD TO

JUST FOLLOW THE LIGHT

COWGIRLS ARE TUFF

AND I'AM HERE TO SAY

LOOK OUT WORLD

I'AM ON MY WAY

Sincerely,

Chicagoguy

Progress not perfection my lovely ....back on the horse and keep crossing that prairie ..best news of all is ya came home x

Damper and billy tea awaits .... Xx

A lil throwback from my Aussie days

R and d xxx

Joan.

With your honest approach to life you can triumph over disaster, your resolve will grow and the destruction will cease.

Why???

Because yesterday you bettered your today and today i know you can better your tomorrow.

You will smile as well as i see you did get back in the saddle and put your feet on the peddles, now just for today lets enjoy the ride together.

As we both know two things tomorrow never comes and we are only human after all.

Be kind to yourself, you did something amazing.

Duncs stepping forward never back.