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Boro.
Fella I feel for you fella, you are so deeply entrenched with addiction you will just keep losing.
The most painful words for me are those that trivialise your loss.
'put ВЈ2000 in and got up to ВЈ1600 so only £700 down'
My friend that statement could be ripped out of any day of my active gambling life.
Yet like me the £700 loss was not enough you carried on spinning.
We live by a mantra.
I cannot win because I cannot stop.
Do you seriously believe that you will be in a better place in April??
Because fella nobody else will ever fix your problem, equally I firmly believe that the gambling industry will find a way to navigate around the maximum odds, be it through vip membership or multiple spins, they enjoy the money raised from the fobt to much.
Look at the fancy shops we have funded, four fobt in each one.
Time to do more for you.
Cutting up the card a great place to start.
With honesty I fear you have withdrawn cash yesterday from what was left of your stake and if you are like me when addiction is active that money will be burning a hole in your pocket.
I hope I am wrong.
Sincerely I do.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back.

Cheers for your comment as always Duncan

I had to cut me card otherwise things would have just continued after a few days. At least this way I have put a stop to losing thousands. No card but don’t need it when I can just transfer money to me mam account. So she can just give me the little money I need.

As for do I think April will help . I really do Duncan I think it will help me and a lot of others I don’t play slots only roulette. It will be interesting to see what they do about roulette because really it becomes redundant on £2 maximum stake. I hope they is no way you can up the stake otherwise no point in reducing it to £2. But yesterday was just crazy I’m pleased now I took the £800 and odd out and I have put it back into my account today so no way to draw it out either over the counter or atm

My daughters Lego friends came today. I have been buying her quite a few things lately because I was winning gambling. She still can have whatever she wants because I’m still not short of money even with the gambling I have been doing lately. So that will put a smile on her face the next time I see her . No gambling today or yesterday

Two words and one ends in off

Hey boro. Good to see you are still seeing your daughter. One smile makes all the misery disappear for a bit!! Can't believe some rat has posted that on your thread and a few others! I have on word for them...rhymes with runts!! Keep the chin up big man.

I could not believe when I saw it mate. How stupid are some people thinking people would fall for that s**t

I alerted the moderator like the soon as I saw it. Pathetic some people are

Not played the fobt today. But been thinking about what I have lost (not money because that can be replaced. The two women I have been involved with the last 15 years. I loved them both but lost them through gambling the first more than the 2 nd. I had a child with both so anybody who gambling out of they mind look at my diary because that what you can lose!!

Hello Graeme

Mate you didn't gamble today. Massive achievement. You can do this again tomorrow. And then again the next day. Life could slowly start to get better for you.

It hurts to read about your past regrets and what you have lost through gambling. In many ways I respect you so much for putting that out there as it is a smack in the face for me to remain GF and never let my guard down, I'll lose everything if I gamble again... Wife and kid included. You've always posted with brutal honesty and I respect you for that. It's good for those that read your diary.

"Its ok to look back at the past as long as you don't stop and stare at it" - words to that effect someone told me on here in the early days of my recovery. Don't be too hard on yourself today bud, you didn't gamble ;o)

Cheers for your support signalman as always Getting an urge to put a few bets on the horses today but what’s the point if I win it ain’t going to get the money back I lost the other day. But more than likely just add to the loss

Yeah. Just give up gambling completely mate. It would be the cheaper and more cost-effective option. The money ain't coming back... Well it will slowly if you earn it back and don't gamble.

I’m just pleased I cut me card up so the temptation to go on fobt is not there because I can’t get me hands on any large amounts of cash which is great.

Work late today so no gambling at all

Do you feel strong today mate? One day at a time - keep what's important to you in your mind and always be mindful of how much damage you'll do to yourself and those dear to you if you succumb to the beast. Have a great day and hope you conquer whatever challenges lay before you today.