Starting again again desperate in debt and spiralling out of control trying to get counselling but there's awaiting list.
My willpower is disgustingly rubbish I feel like cr** and I hate what this addiction is doing to me !, arghhh!!!
Hi strange,
Do not be hard on yourself, this addiction just feeds from your low feelings and pain. It is never too late to start again.Never give up giving up. It might take one go or twenty goes, you will get there eventually. Don't beat urself up, you can't change the past, start with today, this moment in time . strength to you dear fighter, you know it can be done and you can do it. Believe in yourself.
Day at a time, it only takes one right decision each day to better your life for good.
Take care and strength your way
Sandra
I have finally had the courage to tell a friend of many years about my problem. I have handed to her all access to my money and I am meeting her on a regular basis to get what little cash I need to see me through the week and to talk about some of the issues. I only spoke to her on Thursday but I feel liberated! There were some tears I have to say but I finally did what I should have done ages ago! Never thought I could but pride comes at a price! May 9 the start of a new me, feeling determined!
Well with no money you can't gamble. I know you can on line but that has never been my thing gonna put some blocks in place though!
If any one is reading these diaries thinking they can't let anyone they know about their problem . Believe me you cannot not tell them. The relief of admitting it to someone you love is unbelievable.
Still not gambled no inclination. Trying to manage on small budget is hard but I am giving it a go
Feel so positive when not gambling don't know why I get suckered back into it. Have a strategy now though that basically gives no access to cash! Simples!
No gambling fighting on!
Fighting the fight and keeping the devils at the door.
Keeping up the fight. It's a constant juggle moving around cc balances to try to pay as little interest as possible? Nice to see some of the balances coming down though!
Earning about 3500 net per month and living 1100 isn't easy but it could be worse if I continue to gamble
Still going strong. Didn't realise how often I took myself off to gamble. Back at the gym making up for hours of sitting at the slots! Never again feel do much better!
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
