Walking in to recovery program was a life saver for me, I am learning to heal my pains, reduce my fears and being a much healthier person, gambling is not healthy at all for me. It is just to painful.

Hi

Walking in to the recovery was very scarey for me, yet it was one of the best things I did in my life.

I am a non religious but found out that recovery works for every one if you go to meetings and do the work.

I like many people did not stop gambling day one.

I was told that people in the rooms wanted to see me go to meetings no matter when my last bet was.

Even if I had no money keep going to meetings.

If I kept going to meeetings in  time I would not only stop gambling but would live a much healthier life.

In time I handed over all finances and credit cards to my wife and was given a small amount of money each day.

The simple truth I could not trust my self with money or credit cards.

Well what do you know some time later I was able to trust my self with money.

The room of recovery was about learning to be honest to my self.

In time I would give up gambling it would be my choice.

In time I would I get to understand each of my emotional triggers.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to heal my pains.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to reduce and face my fears.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to reduce my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

To not take things to seriously.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to have a healthy intimacy with people in the recovery program.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to write down my needs my wants and my goals and not procrastinate with my time.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to become more productive.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to stop feeeling guilty shamre and regret for the pains I casused in the past.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to learn to love my self.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to learn to respect my self.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to learn give more of my self to other people.

Being an addict I was not a selfish person I was how ever a self destructive person.

Being an addict I was not evil bad good right or worng how ever I was emotionally vulnerable.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to heal the hurt inner child in me.

I learn from my past but no longer live in it.

Sticking to the recovery I was able to reach a very healthy level of healthy actions and healthy words.

Sticking to the recovery I was letting go of being unhealthy and becoming a much healthier person each day.

Without being committed to the recovery program I would have never been as healthy as I am today.

To live my life with out fear, to heal my pains, to live the fullest days I can and be as healthy as any one could be.

Healing love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham