Hi
For me pains in my life caused many unhealthy fears in me that I did not understand.
Feeling lonely and abandoned and fearing emotional intimacy was a scarey place to be.
In time I would understand that the recovery program was not going to control my life or stop me gambling.
For me the recovery program if they are healthy meetings will be encourgaing and nurturing towards me giving up on my unhealthy habits and unhealthy obsessions and become a healed productive person able to make healthier choices each day.
I view the recovery program as a course like mountain climbing, linked together through our healthy sharing and healthy therapies and able to make much healthier choices in our life each day.
Our healthy connections help us all get much more healthier and heal by slow baby steps.
I walked in to the recovery program thinking that Gambling and lack of money were my only problems.
The recovery program helped me fulfill my needs, helped me fulfill my wants, and helped me fulfill my new found goals.
I have been in recovery since 1971.
I have been clean from gambling in recovery since 1992.
On August 1st I will be celebrating my GA birthday.
If I have not gambled so long why still attend meetings.
Well for me I keep more stable in my thinking.
I am also paying if forward all the help I was given.
I express gratitude and appreciation towards my self and towards other people.
I express gratitude and appreciation as it demonsrate my healthy spirtual values today.
I do not want or need to lie today.
My lies indicated how much fear I use to live in.
Guilt shame regret hatred resentments tell me I am not healing my emotional pains.
The first most important things in my life today is close healthy intimacy realtionships with my self and with other people.
The second most important things in my life today is time and what it means to me, arriving early meeting people I am more relaxed.
Procrastinating is very unhealthy habit, I am avoiding fulfilling my needs my wants and my goals.
How eager and enthsiastic as I at any meeting.
Investing effort in to my self is healthy thing to do.
How much time and effort am I willing to invest in to my recovery today.
Healing Love Peace to every one.
AKA Dave of Beckenham
@freeee Hi
I have lost count of the times I broke out gambling again.
Yet now I understand that if I Gamble again I am not losing the clean days I have already had.
From each break out I get to understand my last emotional trigger.
My time in the recovery program has proved well worth while for me and my family.
My wife had obviously had enough of gambling and asked if she asked each day if I Gambled coulld I be honest about.
My wife explained that my lies were a painful due to the fact it made her feel so insecure.
My lies were causing her so much pain.
0I do not want to lie today to her or m self.
Healing and peace.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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