3 days since I admitted I have a problem.
Can’t believe I got sucked into this.
Started online gambling (blackjack) 18 months ago, only £10 a week, little £2 bets sometimes would double my money, most times lose it. But £40 a month, didn’t seem a problem. Then just under a year ago, I suffered a serious injury and was layed up on the sofa for 8 weeks, I was so bored (there’s only so much daytime tv I could watch and books I could read).
During that time the betting escalated to probably £150 a month, still not too bad and didn’t really effect me negatively. Deleted the app though once I recovered as thought this was an unacceptable amount! But some time between September and December reinstalled the app, don’t know why, and was betting £100-£150 a month just a few times a week of an evening when bored. This gradually increased until on Thursday night/Friday morning lost £6500. Luckily for me I realised what a fool I was being at that point. So I still have enough money to live this month. And still have savings left. Wished I’d never started and so hope I never return to it. I feel lucky at the moment, just hope I never return, but as a friend said to me yesterday you’re strong and one of the most stubborn people I know hope I can live up to the stubbornness.
Can I just say thanks to many of the posts I’ve read on this forum the last couple of days, it’s been a great help!
Dr Dan
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Thanks for message. Still bet free 5 days now, not been tempted, feel much better now, still upset I lost the money, but know it’s gone. But feel good in the fact that I know I’m not throwing good money in the bin.
I also thought about the positives too. If it never escalated I probably would have lost between £1000 and £2000 a year. Which over the next 20 years would have been £20000 to £40000. So I may have taken a £6500 hit in one go. But over the rest of my life it’s saved me money.
Lets just hope I do stay on the wagon.
Dr Dan
Well after 6 months bet free, fell of the wagon last night and lost £2500.
At least I stopped at that point, feel a disappointed and disgusted with myself.
But determined that this is only a minor setback on the long road
sorry to hear that Dan, hope you get back on track, dont dwell on to it.. I relapsed as well, 3 months ago, after being gamble free for 1 year.. now I am gamble free for 3 months
Hi Dan,
How did you gamble? have you done self exclusions? Have you opened up to people close to you about this so they are aware of it? Have you checked out GA meetings to get support? Unless there is change we eventually go back to gambling.
Thanks Joe and the dude, for you replies.
I opened up a bit to so friends before, but didn’t really talk about the underlying issues with them, I have this time, and feel a lot better already, (a lot quicker than I did last time) Hopefully facing up to the underlying issue will help. And my good friend and work colleague has said if ever you get the urge again, I can ring her anytime day or night.
I never self excluded, but I did limit to £10 a month as I’ve never become addicted to football betting and I like doing a silly £2 accumulator on the football each weekend.
But I think I might have to do that, and stop doing the silly £2 bet.
I obviously, stupidly downloaded a different app for Blackjack that I hadn’t used before.
And good luck to you both, and thanks again for your replies
Dr Dan
Hi Dan,
I was very similar to yourself, I was in denial of the reality regarding my problem. I knew it was slots and roulette that were causing me to lose control so thought I could just keep my weekend flutter on football and the odd horse race I would be fine. I would be diciplined for long spells but I would always end back betting more and more and then going back to roulette, blackjack or slots as they results were instant.
Unfortunalty it was not until I hit rock bottom that I went to get help and really opened up about it, I had councelling before but just told the councellor what they needed to hear. This time I went to my local GA meeting, they people there all knew what I was going through. It was a huge help and still is as recovery is not a switch to turn off, its a life long battle. But if we take it one day at a time and make recovery part of our lives we can overcome this addiction.
Look up your nearest GA meeting, go there and open up about your gambling. Be completley honest and you will be well on the way to tackling this issue.
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