Anxious About The Truth

Its going to be hard but admit what’s happened to your family. Then admit to yourself that unless you self exclude completely you are likely to gamble again. We are all weak so it has to be done or the circle will continue over and over - a few weeks or months free then a relapse.  Register so all online is excluded then do the same at ALL bookmakers. Its difficult as you won’t want to do it but you must.

Before you is a life wasted. Money thrown away. Time with those you love chucked away. Lies and deceit a way of life. Unless you suck it up and do something serious that stops you gambling.

Dont rely on yourself as you have tried that and failed. Be strong - I insisted that my partner looked at my bank statements every week so she could see what was happening and where my money was going. I made up excuses for her not to look at my finances but explained at the beginning that I would do that when there was a problem again. 
Its the only way as we are deceitful liars caught up in a nightmare.

You can beat it but everything must be in the open and you must self exclude.

Good luck 

I know exactly how you feel I myself just admitted to my family just yesterday that I have a gambling problem I've told them everything the full truth it did hurt to say it out loud and admit to the money that I've lost but I'm hopeful to build my relationships and honesty back up with them I also got gamban on my device to stop me gambling. Maybe the truth is where to start with family to help you and support you threw this difficult time. Good luck