ASHAMED

Welcome, and believe me you have done the right thing by coming on here.

In the 2 weeks I've been on here I've received some excellent advice, booked into see a counsellor and haven't gambled for the last 5 days.

Everybody's story's on here are so similar to myself and it's comforting to know we are not the only ones

Good luck in overcoming this

Thank you very much for replying and congratulations on your progress. I just sat here this morning counting up this weeks losses and was shocked. I keep going back to try and win the money back each online bet getting worse than before. The money i do sometjmes win dont cover the losses so i carry on waiting for the "big win" that rarely comes and im back at square 1.this is a vicious circle. Trying to get that high off the very first wins i had on the online slots. Each time getting harder to feel that buzz. I feel like im going crazy and before i even lose all the money im thinking about putting more in. Its coming up christmas and i just think WHY dis i put all that in knowing im going to lose it all. Sorry for rambling on i just need to get this out my system

Firstly don't be ashamed. Gambling addiction puts us in a horrible and cruel situation that would grind the strongest of people down.

Getting out of the vicious circle of chasing losses is a huge step to ending the nightmare. It is unfortunate that often it seems like the only way of winning our losses back is to gamble even more. I am literally counting pennies when I should be comfortably well off.

You are still young at 27, get out now before it carries on further and the losses - and the feelings of despair - grow even worse.

Thank you for replying to my thread. Im just an emotional wreck today.you know theres a problem but when you admit it ,it hits you hard. All ive done is cry. Im so angry with myself right now. Its a great comfort to know im not alone and i hope i can post a more positive thread in the future. I know i need to stop chasing losses,my hearts telling me to just resign from the bingo sites but my head just says that "big win" will come....it dont though and thats why i dont understand myself because i know what im doing is wrong

I think logic and common sense goes out of the window when it comes to gambling but as the old saying goes "when you're stuck in a hole, stop digging".

Maybe you should contact the gamcare helpline?

Hi Crickets,

I read what you wrote on another diary about learning the truth about gambling sites.... It's all a cod.

I agree with you and the more you learn about near-misses and marketing tactics to entice you to play, the more you will see through gambling and turn your back on it.

If you want to be gamble free , keep reading the diaries and start up one of your own in the Recovery Diaries section. We will all help you on your Recovery Journey.

We WANT to help you.

I am on Day 135 and my life is so much easier without gambling.

You too can do this.

Look up "Women Gamble Too" in the Advice section on the left hand side of the screen.

Take care,

Suzy

Thank you so much everyone. Im finding it really difficult today and i actually went to deposit but talked myself out of it.so scary that i nearly failed myself but good that i didnt. Thank you i will set a diary up and carry on with this site.i need as much help as i can get xxx

ive just joined this forum and have a very sinilar problem. mine isnt just online though its fixed odds betting terminals sports betting casino and slots. ive lost thousands of pounds for over 10 years . im an addict and it is the first time i have ever joined anyhting like this. that late goal manchester united scored today cost me 1350 i would have won i now am absolutely broke for another month...idiot springs to mind