Hi
Back again on here, i don't know why i went down the path again but been on and off gambling. I've really struggled this year for some reason , i think mainly because the fact i was winning it was feeding my habit massively and i kept saying quit while on top , well a true gambling addict can't do that , once i started loosing i started chasing. I put off writing on here for the past week , because i don't think i wanted to quit i wanted to chase more and try win all back. Today this afternoon i need to dig my heels in and go day 1 tomorrow Saturday. I just need to find something to keep me busy .
I guess winning is the worst thing cause it just feeds the addiction. I don't know how it does it but the 'gambling machine' always seems to get you after you win.Â
I agree , as an addict winning is the worse thing , i kept trying to quit this year but i don't think i was 100 percent behind , i kept thinking of when the slots gave me 1500 and that it could happen again , it certainly won't and if it does it will just get blown on more stupid bets. I feel disgusted in myself.
Yes it's hard to stop and walk away on a loss but it will just end up with you losing more. It's a no win situation because if we win we usually play more .....and the losing streak will happen...eventually. It's inevitable. It is hard to stop. I had to walk away on huge losses because it was just a constant cycle. If you don't walk away with the win in your pocket there's no point in playing because eventually that money will go back in anyway. I'd had enough of the chasing my own money back. After quiiting, it was only difficult for about the first week with the urges and then it seemed to get easier. The financial mess was harder to deal with. Chasing alway does lead to more losses. It's like as if the machine knows your desperation! I don't regret quitting. It's the best thing I ever did. My mind is free and my time is free again and the money earnt is mine. I'm not giving it away and trying to win my own money back. Once I got my motivation back I started spending time doing things I should have been doing....not wasting hour after hour in the bookies .....all just to put it all back in the next day anyway! Sometimes it didn't even last till the next day ....IF (and that's a big IF) I'd had a win. If you're compulsive gambler and you can't stop or walk on wins then you're never going to come out winning. I considered that if I quit when I did then the losses were alot but it would have been much worse if I'd have carried on. I just hope now that I never get on that treadmill again, caught in that addiction.It really is horrible. I hope you can manage to abstain. It will get easier once you've done a few days, weeks etc.Â
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