Back here after 8 years. Rock BOTTOM I need serious help now.

Hi Geo, glad to hear the GA meeting went well, do you think you could see yourself going regularily?

Double digits tomorrow - congratulations. This has been the start of where I've tripped up quite a few times in the past - so have you got some blocks in place as a precaution?

Regardless you're still doing great pal, hope to see you posting on here more!

Keep strong, things will get better, you just gotta stay away. I'm around the same age as you and I been in this game for so many years. I also can remember my first loss of around a 1000 and feeing distraught, then losing 5k 10k 20k and my worse night of all losing 40k in one hour on online roulette. So many times I felt I hit rock bottom and was going to quit yet I kept going back. I remember that 40k loss 4 years ago and I probably felt similar to how your feeling, but since that 4 years I've gone onto lose more and do even more damage to my life even tho I thought at that time it couldn't get any worse. If I woulda left it at that 40 loss and quit after that, then by now my life would be in a much better situation. Point being - as long as you quit now for good, in a few years you will get over it and things will be better.

Thank you Adam. Sat on my break having lunch and it’s now 10 days. That double digits.

My girlfriend has my card so she now controls my finances. We’ve installed online banking on her phone so she knows exactly what goes into and comes out of the account. Previously I have cancelled the card and ordered a new one. She will be notified on her phone if I do that this time.

I definitely will be attending regular GA meetings. I am currently looking for another location as the one I went to runs only Thursday’s.

I am feeling positive that this time round I will achieve staying GF with all the help in place.

Frankie, is a horrible feeling. I wish I had learned my lesson from that first loss but time cannot he turned back.

I hope and believe I will definitely quit for good this time as I am getting help properly. Before I think I wasn’t serious about getting help but now I am because I have shattered the dreams of me and my girlfriend as well as disappointing her immensely and myself.

I want to look back a year by this time and say I have not gambled.

I hope you are doing well on the GF journey too buddy. Keep me updated and I’ll keep updating regularly. One day at a time.

I honestly can say that gambling has me beat and I am helpless against it. So I am going to stay well away. Day 10 and the urge set in but called a member from GA and we have spoken for half an hour. Now relieved as I did not go to bookies. One day at a time. For now time for bed and ready for work later.

Hi Geo

Congrats on reaching double figures I saw on the Guru challenge. I'm just one day behind you ! Looking forward to watching your journey progress. Well done abstaining and sticking to quitting. We know it makes sense!

Boxingdayfresh

Thank you boxingdayfresh and Ineffable. I am trying, I am putting all available measures in place to stop myself because will power alone cannot do this as I have already witnessed a few times. I am currently self excluding from all the bookies within my area and hopefully that will help.

Thanks for the love and encouragement. I hope you guys are doing well on your journeys and lets continue to stay GF one day at a time.

Day 30 GF, life is maginally better. thoughts are there but keeping them at bay by going GA meetings, occupying my time with other activities and speaking to family and friends whenever I get the urge. hopefully another 30 more days GF to follow but for now I will take it one day at a time.

Congratulations on reaching 30 days GF - a great milestone. How would you feel about starting a thread over on Recovery Diaries? Keep posting,

Best wishes

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Good job for the 30 days GF. Keep posting

Best wishes

Day 54. Just had pay day. Although I have made some small amount of savings since my last bet today feels gloom. My mind is playng tricks on me that if I gamble the bit I have saved I may be able to get all that I have lost back. I know this is a lie to suck me in again. I am keeping busy and hopefully meeting at GA this week will help ease this tension. I am keeping it going One Day At a Time.

Hey Geo, well done for still being gamble free after 54 days.

It sounds like you are still having some pretty strong urges. Have you given over complete financial control to your girlfriend yet? I know you said she monitors your bank account but do you still have access to the card?

Hope you are good buddy

frankie123 wrote:

Keep strong, things will get better, you just gotta stay away. I'm around the same age as you and I been in this game for so many years. I also can remember my first loss of around a 1000 and feeing distraught, then losing 5k 10k 20k and my worse night of all losing 40k in one hour on online roulette. So many times I felt I hit rock bottom and was going to quit yet I kept going back. I remember that 40k loss 4 years ago and I probably felt similar to how your feeling, but since that 4 years I've gone onto lose more and do even more damage to my life even tho I thought at that time it couldn't get any worse. If I woulda left it at that 40 loss and quit after that, then by now my life would be in a much better situation. Point being - as long as you quit now for good, in a few years you will get over it and things will be better.