I had / have Cryptos and stocks with borrowed money. Didn't think of it as gambling as such but clearly it is. Absolutely crazy, was checking the prices hundred of times a day. Think I did have roughly so lost about 5 grand.Â
Not the first time I've done something like this trying to be clever. It's never worked. I can't keep going round in circles borrowing money, refinancing. Next stop would probably be losing the house. Already got a secured loan against it.Â
I've stated selling everything and paying back as much credit card debt as I possibly can and going to meet up with a counsellor referred from helpline.Â
My head is a mess.Â
Hi
Thank you for your sharing.
I did not have much confidence or s elf esteem when in action.
Sadly thinking I could get some thing for nothing or get some cheap I thought I was clever and was being succesful.
In the recovery program I would not only understand but know that my success is based up my healthy actions and my healthy waords.
In the recovery program I would learn that in another person is abale to do things so could I.
In the recovery program I would hear therapies and would see and hear my self in other people therapies.
I use to think that humbling your self was belittling myself.
In the recovery program I would understand that humbling my self was making me an equal to people in the rooms.
Only once I started to abstain the recovery program would help me abstain from not just gambling but other unhealthy habits.
Like minded people in the recovery program would help me write down my needs my wants and in time my healthy goals.
Did I enjoy being aloner.
Did I think that I was self abusing my self in so many unhealthy ways.
I would go to work and at the end of the month give my money away to complete strangers and I would go with out holidays and teating myself from doing a good job.
In the recovery program I would learn to reward my self not just buying some thing but in how I talked and thought about my self.
In the recovery program I would learn to respect my self.
In the recovery program I would learn to love my self.
Me sticking the recovery program was a very good healthy investment in to my self.
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
Dave of Beckenham
Now after selling everything, the cryptos are going back up. I was obsessing over them and even now after selling I still am. I know this is unhealthy. What a mess.
Generally with these things it's best to swallow the loss and walk away from it. Chances are even if you still held the position you'd lose, with gambling no amount is satisfactory so you still end up giving all back to the houseÂ
@oranje01 I've sold everything and will be paying some of my debt back (money I stupidly borrowed specifically to buy crypto and crypto related stocks with). I will still owe about £8000 on top of my mortgage and secured loan. Will have to work overtime constantly to get by at a time when my daughter is going to university I could do without this..
Love on my own so it's just my income. Always always comparing myself to people who have "made it". Thing is, if I keep doing that and losing I will end up losing everything. Clinging on to the house.
@gadaveuk Thanks for that Dave. I feel tangled up right now big time tbh.
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