Brutal

Hi stupidpeter

Welcome to the forum you will find a lot of support here from the members who will understand your struggle with gambling.

There is alot of help and information here please see the link for some information on what is available to you

http://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-support/yourself

You may want to call and speak with a gamcare advisor on the freephone helpline on 08080 8020 133 or contact an advisor through our netline. Gamcare advisors can give you information on strategies that can help when stopping gambling such as self exclusion from online gambling sites, casinos or betting shops and software to block online gambling sites.

Free counselling is also available in some areas and advisers will be able to help you find your nearest service if you would like to explore this option or sign post you to other forms of support such as Gamblers Anonymous meetings

http://www.gamblersanonymous.org.uk/index.php/ga-meetings/find-a-meeting

Keep posting we are here to support you

Take Care

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Hello Peter

I felt so sad reading that line about not gambling only if there is no money left.

I totally relate to that. I had to hand my finances over to a family member because like you I have no control after 30 odd years of heavy gambling.

Your debt relief order will get rid of the past. Please please dont let this ruin your fresh financial start.

When you feel ready, please post up a little more of your history to help us understand how you fell or what led you into this

dire addiction

Hi Peter

Welcome to the forum. I wont use your full handle because you are not stupid or silly. Its an addiction and it gets to people from all walks of life.

I would also say that you havent become immune to the down feelings. Your addiction has made you numb and it causes a near constant depression where the only way you try and feel normal is to change your emotions by gambling.

Only I dont really call it a lift in emotions. I call it a change in emotions. Its more the cold sweat of determination that just gives another feeling to being numb with life. I know it wasnt fun for years with me but my mind and body needed the fellings it was getting.

It just wasnt fun and the feeling afterwards was fatigue like I had been through the mill of stress. I felt exhausted and even more depressed as I had to go home with no money for essentials

Im afraid that stopping while skint is not the test. I managed that for over a month but the truth is I was totally skint and couldnt do it anyway.

Ive been through a DRO that wasnt helped by gambling. If you dont stop gambling you will be facing another dro situation and you wont be allowed another one for a long time

You can get your self respect back. Phone gamcare, tell people close and put the self exclusion blocks on.

You can live the rest of your life as a better, more confident, happier person. You can stop when you see things clearly. Gambling only has more misery in store for you and deeper problems

Being gamble free is a wonderful feeling

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

Hi Peter. Well done for seeking help and realising that you've got to finally stop gambling to take control of your life.

You may not see a way forward at this time, but honestly there is a better life awaiting you without the need for gambling. Find a new hobbie, a project or a personal challenge.

With the help from this forum, and the genuine support from like-minded people, you will have a good chance to change and progress. 🙂

Update :

Like every single one of you on here I struggled to stop . I was on the bare bones 2 days ago last £20 so what did i do , I joined a site and played slots . 17 hours later through out the whole night with no sleep I had built up a balance of £9400.00 . I was so tired it did not even make me exited . I logged off and went to sleep. soon as I woke up I was there again watching the flashing reels spin waiting for the bonus rounds that get me so exited. at the very start with my initial £20 deposit i was playing 30p spins , At the end I was doing 50 x £15 or £20 spins.. Absolute madness. Anyway after I went back on I was soon £3000 down I knew I had been here so many times before and ended up giving the whole lot back.. not this time. I showed my partner and installed the K9 block after withdrawing £6500.00 .. I have told my partner it is going in her bank and we are going to do something usefull with it this time. That is my lot now . Ill call it quits. Its has mentally and physically worn me into the ground. I have had around 3 hours sleep in 48 hours. what is the point living like that it will kill me quicker than a speeding train.

you all know these types of wins are very few and far between so do not take encouragment from this. I have quit for good/ although I won a bit back I have lost 20 or 30 times more over my gambling life,. stay strong .