Morning All,
I am Julie, a 35 year old compulsive gambler from Edinburgh. My gambling has been a problem since 2009. I have always played games online but in 2009 discovered online casinos and, oh dear.
I have known for a long time that my gambling was neither normal nor healthy but it is genuinely incredible how long one can believe one's own lies.
So far, I have managed to keep my addiction a secret. I hope I am strong enough to recover in secret too. Any support or advice would be much appreciated. I will try to do the same for others as my journey progresses and I feel I might be of use to anyone.
I have requested self exclusion from all my sites. I have sort of given up gambling before but withoit ever getting around to excluding which always made it very easy to go back to my gambling ways. Not this time! I have also installed blocking software on my pc.
Five years of just another hundred won't hurt, pretending I am in control, hiding bank statements, sleepless nights, chasing losses stop now.
Jx
Hi Julie. I have a similar story to you. Firstly well done for making it here. I never ever thought in a million years i would end up the person i had become. Finding this site has given me so much support. There are so many of us fighting this secret disease. I almost one month gamble free. Miracle really. The members on here are so so supportive non judgemental and understanding. Please keep posting. Have you thought about counselling??. Stay strong and together we can beat this nasty vile all consuming thing. Good luck xx
Thanks Lizt. I have been reading today more than posting. There is comfort in knowing I am not the only person to fall into this spiral. I am thankful for the chance to turn my life around.
Welcome Julie! I agree with the last speaker!!!! Lol. Anyway, this is a brilliant site ... we're all here for the same reason. I have never told anyone about my addiction and like you, I hope it stays that way until I have it beaten! I know I will, with the help/support on this site. I wish you well in your recovery. Helen. X
Hi Julie
This is my first day on here. Similar story addicted wish to keep it a secret and beat it as a secret. Reading people's comments have helped. Replying to people helped. In fact the above comment by Helan she was the first person to write to me. Her comments brought a
Smile to me. When three hours ago i felt lonely and very
Low. keep updating your diary. I hope you beat this addiction.
Hi Julie
This is my first day on here. Similar story addicted wish to keep it a secret and beat it as a secret. Reading people's comments have helped. Replying to people helped. In fact the above comment by Helan she was the first person to write to me. Her comments brought a
Smile to me. When three hours ago i felt lonely and very
Low. keep updating your diary. I hope you beat this addiction.
Thank you Sam and Helen for the welcome and support. Day 2 going pretty well. Not really sure I feel I have quit yet as never gambled every day and the urge hasn't really hit me yet. I know it will at some point. Good to hear that it is possible. Thanks!
Lazy Saturday and really feeling the urge to bet. Need to find other ways to fill my days off.
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