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It's hard work stopping and takes a lot of willpower but there is no alternative. Unfortunately when we decide to stop it is usually when we are feeling low and vulnerable anyway, and it can become a vicious circle as gambling again feels like the only escape and so we start over. Breaking that cycle is the key to it. Best of luck with it mate.

Hi Gary. Sorry to hear of your predicament. Just know that you're not alone in battling this horrible addiction, and it's good to hear you're determined to do so. Best of luck.

Thanks guys.this is exactly why I decided to use this forum. Plenty of support from day one. Had a good day today.no bets.read my little one day at a time book this morning,and tried to take its meaning through the day with me..Shock..I did someone good today for a change.small things to make me feel better about myself.

Its been over a week now without a bet.heads still fried over everything I've done.

Congratulations on your week gar1000, no small feat for a compulsive gambler 🙂

I'm no expert but I am in recovery & I found writing a diary really helped me! It was very hard for me to see, in the cold light of the early non gambling days (I don't recall having a conscience @ all before I quit), all the bad I had done but my Mum has a saying that it's no good regetting the things you could have changed but didn't. I figured it was just her way of saying no use crying over split milk but there was something on the end of it that suggested amends could be made & that is what you have to work to with your girls.

Let ur wonderful wife help you to keep abstaining - ODAAT

Thanks odaat.missed my Ga meeting last nite and have been in a bit of bad form today.the wifes giving me a lot of grief today but I suppose shes entitled to that. Should be looking forward to a new day tomorrow but I'm dreading it. I've no idea what its going to bring. Feel like a selfish b*****d .sometimes wish tomorrow wouldn't come.the stopping gambling is easy.the day to day arguing and non trust is killing me.think the wife's gonna give up on me soon.I feel like I'm here on borrowed time. And this scares to death
I could never survive without them.

Been a while since I was on. Nearly a week. Not good enough really. Been out Christmas shopping with the wife and was late home and missed yet another meeting. But still no bets. Things at home calmed down a bit. Still a bit distant from everyone but less shouting and bickering. I'm feeling not too bad. Looking forward to Christmas a bit more each day. We usually go to the in laws for Christmas dinner and stay til night drinking and having a bit of craic. But we've decided to do our own thing this year and stay at home. This excites me more than everyone else coz I'll be busy the whole time.back in the marital bed. The sofas grand but theres nothing like your own bed.

Don't beat yourself for stuff that doesn't matter...You remain gamble free & that's what counts, well over 2 weeks now:-) Everyone's recovery is different so as long as your are recovering (it sounds like you are) that's all we need to hear!

So glad you are getting excited about Christmas & hoping things are improving every single day for you! Very glad to hear wifey hasn't given up on you. Keep proving to her every day that she is more important & long may you stay off the sofa 😉

- ODAAT