Hi
I'm 31 and been gambling since i was 21.
To cut a long story short I realised i had a severe gambling problem when aged 23 when gambling on roulette, casino and just about anything really. I went to GA and managed to stay of gambling for a year and a half from my first meeting and then had a relapse. From aged 25 - 30 I never went back to GA i gambled rarely until the later days before going back to GA where i gambled everything and got in serious debt. I then went back to GA and again stayed of gambling for a year and a half and relapsed again, this time i was continuing to go to GA and report no gambling when i was, eventually i drifted out of GA again mainly because I was working the times it was on.
My relapse now is the worst its ever been. I am gambling everything and my monthly wage goes the first day. I am not paying bills and the only thing i think about is gambling. I DONT WANT TO GAMBLE but feel i have no choice just to make a little more money to make life easier but never does.
I'm stuck with what to do next, suicide seems an easy option. I don't want to mention to my fiance ive spent the holiday money or havent paid the gas/elextric for 3 months. I feel i'm stuck with this forever, forever a unwanted gambler who can'yt control the addiction.
Hi Mullen,
everything will become a lot more clear​ if you come clean with your loved ones, tell them what your going through and accept. The consequences.I'm sure your fiancé will be understanding plus a problem shared is a problem halved.suicide. Is not the only way out , call gamcare or tge Samaritans if you are feeling like this they can help.stop this cycle , step outside of it and things can begin to change.I
hope your well.str26
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Thanks Ste
Had a good talk last night and as always things arent as bad as i initially thought. When i stopped gambling for the first time many moons ago I was in overall debt of 45 thousend and I wasn't really bothered. Whereas ive paid the majority back and my total debt now stands at 1700. However i'm more bothered now about the relatively small debt than i was back then with a larger debt.
Suicide isn't the way no. I just cant see a way out of not gambling. To be honest im scared a little of myself knowing the destruction it causes but going back to it. Everything in my life I have learnt and never made the same mistake again but gambling I do, I keep saying never agaib but i do.
My fiance has all my cards again i feel relieved. As sad as it sounds i feel better with absolutely no money than a pocket full of cash, far more relaxed knowing theres no way i can gamble.
I seem to have a vicious cycle going on where everyday stress leads me to gamble which leads to more stress leading me to gamble. The worries are really illogical though.
Thanks MrsP
3rd day back on the wagon. Struggle to curb the urge.
Its crazy as i dont want to gamble and know the trouble it causes but for some reason the big adrenaline rush comes and get this sudden urge to gamble, its very difficult to curb it.
I don't have any access to gamble thankfully.
Having no access is the way to go.. I am sure you have read alot of the advice given but thought I would give you something deeper to consider...... that sudden urge you speak of, alot of the time isnt actually that sudden.... a lot of people actually think of gambling or a way of gambling way before the gamble takes place...i.e..some people drive a certain way home to go past a shop and then tell themselves "well im going past so i might aswell pop in".
If you purposely dont gamble and think about what your actually doing you may gradually get it under control.
I hope you can control yourself.
I now use an help for heroes wrist band that I pull up and let it go on my wrist.... It stings but it wakes me up to the truth that I was finding ways to gamble because it became a habbit
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