Feeling of disappointment to my family

Posted by: @bozza

I gambled for years i relapsed multiple times i felt so low at times its been i fight for the past 12years i lost about 35k am trying to get my finances right and cant see the end in sight. The thing that really hurts is lying to my wife and looking at my kids feeling sick of how weak this addiction has made me feel for so long. 

Tomorrow a new day. (day one again) 

Dear @bozza,

Thank you for sharing your story on the forum today. It sounds like you are having a really difficult time at the minute. It can be really hard opening up to those close to you about your gambling, especially when it has been a problem for some time.

There are organizations that can support you with debt advice, you may find it useful to reach out to StepChange for additional support. It's important to reach out for support when you are struggling.

Please remember you are certainly not alone with this and have come to the right  place for support, we are available 24 hours a day on our helpline on 0808 8020 133 or via our live chat. Do get in contact and one of our advisors can talk everything through and look at all of the support available to you.

Best Wishes

Nathan

Forum Admin

I recognise similar things in my sense of letting people down Bozza, but I can’t assume I know you or your life, I can only wish you all the best and say that like everyone in here, you have taken a massive step forward by recognising there is a problem to be dealt with. 

I posted some diary stuff tonight don’t know if it is of interest or use but after nearly half a life of gambling my 6 months abstinence feels like real progress. The 12 step people say ODAAT - one day at a time, and I have taken comfort from that, not setting myself unachievable goals or being overwhelmed worrying about the uncontrollable future. Despite it all, you are allowed to give yourself a break too, and take baby steps to a better tomorrow. Little by little.