First time trying

This sounds very similar to me. I have struggled with gambling for years always convincing myself I don’t have a problem and have everything under control when in reality I did not. I was lying to myself and allowing myself to believe these lies. I play online slots and could not count how much money I have lost. Even when I have won big, before long I would lose it all. Problem with gambling addiction is it is so much easier to hide than other addictions so you have easy access to many sites on your phone that you can lose your money to every hour of every day. I have today registered with GamStop to cut the addiction at the source. Taking that first step felt very good.

I an right there with you let's take it one day at a time. All we have to quit is for today.

Welcome you will find great help on here it’s helped me immensely it’s a real community 

Ive been there too. Everything paid for but then the extra pennies all go in gambling. You start small then chase losses by the end of the weekend youve lost that extra money which could have been saved ive stopped/trying to stop I would say. Taking a step back i feel so much better now that Im not doing it. I pray i dont relapse tho which i have in the past, but this time have the right stoppers in place. Well done for being brave and stick at it. Let your brain be open to whatever comes in when you're not gambling and you'll be amazed at where you'll be in a few months if you can get there. 

I hear you. It's a tough cycle to break, especially when it becomes a daily habit. Acknowledging the issue is the first step, and seeking support is crucial. Consider talking to a therapist or counselor who specializes in addiction. You're not alone, and there are resources available to help you regain control of your life.

Im struggling over past few days snappy my daughter named mr croc snappy and mardy and yes I am because I don’t know what to do wi my days I’m gambling free have been getting stressed and feel everyone is looking at me I’ve deleted  all apps with gambling in mind I go back to my phone and their all back how !!! N the lies I told to just gambled it all I’m so ashamed how much money I have actually spent it’s unreal things halve got to start turning round Ive so much to sort out n I’m scaired to know the real amount because sometimes I don’t even remember how much I was playing with and for full days and nite in a row