I started gambling when I turned 18 as me and all my friends would put down accas and spin on roulette machines, I rapidly became addicted to winning and thrived the feeling of winning. Every time I lost I would keep telling myself that I can stop and tomorrow will be the day I'll stop and become clean, this was a few months ago but ever since then it has gotten worse, I am now gambling bigger stakes and doing ridiculous gambles in attempt to make my money back. Today was the day I have finally seen through myself to the gambler I am, I lost £1,500 on online roulette and it has left my bank account in over draft, I'm going to Napa during the summer with my friends and have spent all of my spending money and more all in one day! I hate myself for this, I wanted to kill myself because I felt so worthless, and disappointed in myself. yesterday I kept telling myself that I was clean as I hadn't gambled for a few days, I was so proud of myself as financially I was starting to look really healthy just to blow all of it within an hour, when I used to lose I would up the stake to increase the winnings until I broke even or hadn't lost that much but I always knew in the back of my head that one day it'll backfire and that'll be the day I'll loose all of my money and that day has finally came, I regret this decision so much and cannot emphasis how much I beat myself up over this. I really hope today will be the day that I see gambling for what it is, but the desire to gamble to win back what I've lost is ever so more tempting which is such a horrible feeling as there's no other way to get what I've lost back, at work I thinking over and over again how many hours it's going to take me just to earn what I lost in an hour over such a stupid game! I hate myself for this and I'm embarrassed, ashamed of my actions.
Hi deano, I self excluded myself from online casino games but unfortunatly all of my friends went to coral today and the temptation to play roulette over came me, luckily I walked away today with more money than I came in with but I would have much prefered if I didn't win and hadn't played at all!
Hi Joeseph!
Welcome to the club! It really does happen to the best of us! Amazing how many people have fallen into its trap and amazing thinking how many people probably are in its claws right now! Don't let that be you and make sure you are one of those that can say "no not for me thanks"!
I'm 19 and fell into the hole at the end of January! Made sure I didn't dig myself in too deep and thank god I found this site!
My tip to you, don't make life miserable from now on! You made a mistake and we're both young and allowed to make mistakes and learn from them right!...
Just make sure you learn from it and then it's money well spent! Set up a day counter and have will power. Go on that lads holiday ! Work overtime, sell stuff on eBay do whatever you can to justify it all to yourself and chin up!
Ive never been on a lads holiday....maybe next year 😉
Good luck! Hope this helps a bit!
R
Hello Joseph Taylor
Welcome to the forum.
The perennial problem of letting go of losses - wish I had the answer. Easier said than done but try to focus less on the losses and concentrate more on not adding to them.
Barriers, keeping busy, counselling, GA. Try anything that you think might help.
You still have time before the holiday to save money, sell stuff, do overtime.
There are ways of making a bit more money - roulette isn't one of them.
Notice your day counter is back to one?
Look forward to following your progress.
Best wishes
Glint
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