I will keep this relatively short.
Tonight I had an epiphany that has been coming for a LONG time.
I won £500 from £15 and lost it all on roulette in minutes. Moron. I have done worse mind.
For the last 10 years, I have been massively addicted to slots/roulette online.
It has wavered at points when I have had jobs, but this last 3 years has left everybody in my life to be mistrusting of me, myself to look awful, and my health to plummet.
I have today, excluded all my accounts, I will not do this anymore, I have to believe it. I have tried to give up in the past but I am sick of being pennyless, sick, and stressed.
I am sick of scrounging for money to lose online, to then be begging family for money the next day.
I am a complete idiot. I know I am. But from today, this WILL end. I will be happy again.
Welcome to recovery 🙂
You're not a complete idiot, well no more an idiot than I and many others on here can profess to be...Just somewhere along the line you took a wrong turn! The thing is, you can't go back & choose a different path but you can get back on the right one for your future! Great work excluding, just wondering are you even aware that there is such a thing as blocking software? I understand K9 is free but I'm sure GamCare would be able to point you in the right direction if you need advice! Breaking your gambling (Time-Money-Location, remove one & you cannot gamble) triangle will help you abstain whilst you figure out how to move forwards.
Time to start looking after yourself & living again - ODAAT
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