Hi everyone, tonight I've signed up. I need and want to beat this, its taking over my life and I want it back.
Every morning I log into the bank to see what I can afford to gamble online. I don't know why as I'll always do more than I can afford anyway! If I lose, I'll be down and depressed and if I win I'll plan to pay it off my increasing gambling debts but instead will put it all back in before I have the chance as 'I could win more' so win or lose i end up depressed.
I have the end this before it ends me.
Tonight I've done 1100 after the first 100 deposit I won 1200 I was buzzing, one credit card paid off from a gambling debt I accumulated less that a week ago. I was 1100 'up'. Just a few more spins and maybe it will happen again. Lost. Deposited more and 1100 later my bank was empty as it is now. I applied for a loan to cover my losses for Bill's and I don't know if I'll get approved. I dont it my rating must be shot.
I've accumulated 6000 gambling debts in just 1 year. I'm broken and right now I can't see a way out. The biggest addiction and disease that is ruining my life.
I can see my debts getting bigger and I tell myself all the time if I didnt gamble I'd have this money and I could have done that. It makes me sick to my stomach and my depression is awful. I would love a restart life button. I don't know how much more I can take.
Well done on coming on this site and asking for help. You obviously want to stop. Register with Gamstop asap. This will ban you from playing UK online casinos. Also install Gamban on your phone/laptop or computer. It only costs £10 a year for one licence. You will not be able to use any gambling site online. Do you use a credit card? Can you contact your bank to limit expenditure on this ? Keep us posted. I read stories on this and it helps me to know I am not alone . Good luck . I know it is raw at the moment but you need to start somewhere. I am on my 37th day and I’m feeling much better and my bank balance is healthier!
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