Hello. Im new here

Newbie here. Taken the first steps to try and stop gambling. I have found it so hard. I keep saying to myself 'it's time to stop' 'just one more time and that's it' but it never is the end. Iv tried to speak to my partner about it but he just doesn't understand. He just says 'well just stop, stop doing it' he thinks it's as easier as that but it's not. He really doesn't understand. And I have noone else I feel comfortable talking to about my problems. People have enough of there own problems at the minute, they don't need adding to it. It's easier just keeping it to myself. I have 2 children under 3 and a partner who are my absolute world. I need to stop for them. But lockdown and the past year have just added to it all and iv just gambled more and more and more. We have no money for rent, food or bills. And my partner doesn't know. He thinks we have money in the bank. He is disabled  and can't look after the accounts (im his full time carer) I have responsibility for all our accounts and things so he doesn't know about our money problems. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't hide it for much longer. Even though I have people around me, I have never felt so alone.