Here i am again

Sounds like you could do with some real-life support and advice. Have you tried GA yet? Some counselling sessions?

The part about not wanting to live anymore worries me although I can relate, I've been at that point too. Maybe speak to your GP also (if you can get an appointment).

The help and support is out there and it works though only you can decide to use it.

All the best

Hi liggy, welcome back, sorry to hear you're feeling so low but that's what gambling does to us, its strips us of our worth 🙁

Please get in touch with The Samaritans on 116123 or visit their website:

https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us

There is no advice that I can give that you haven't already had & I'm not sure if you ever made it to GA but if not & you are still living in the same place, pop across to oldhamktf's diary & ask for the meeting details.

You can get stuff off of your chest here or @ GA but all the advice in the world is useless until we find a way to take it on board.

You feel hopeless now but you did it before so you know you can do it again. Get your barriers back up, don't leave anything to chance & take all the support you can from the site, meetings, loved ones, counselling. Gambling has taken enough, time to start looking after you - ODAAT

Hi liggy .

Sorry youre back in these circumstances and I can totally empathise how your feeling , when I turned up here a couple of years ago I felt that it just wasn't worth going on with life but quickly realised that it wasn't about me wanting to end it all but I wanted the hurt that gambling was causing me to stop and just wanted a way out of the mess I was creating everyday .

The truth is that this is all a temporary state which can get better quite quickly if you allow it to but ending it all is a very permanent solution from which there's no way back .

Youv'e come back here and addmited to yourself and all the Cg's what's happened and we totally get where your coming from as weve all been there :((

Youve learnt what went wrong the last time so maybe it's time to make all those blocks watertight so the same thing cant happen again and take the advice above and get yourself some extra real life help ?.

Sometimes we have to fall off a couple of times before we find balance and understanding that allows us to move forward , don't beat yourself up too much it happens and as I said thing's will get better if you allow it too .

Talk to you soon but all the best for now :))

Alan

Hi liggypops,

really sorry to hear about your lapse and how low you are feeling right now. I would just like to re-iterate the options mentioned above; talk to your GP, talk to the Samaritans, and of course talk to us on the Helpline or the Netline.

As ALAN says, lapses are part of the process, we can all learn from them and move on with stronger resolve. A lapse is not the end of the world, you have not failed, just because you had a lapse. It is important to remember that.

Keep posting, keep talking.

All the best,

Eva

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Hi,thanks for your kind words and support,i am going to see the doctor next week,i do feel a little better than the other day,like i said not after sympathy,just wanted to get it off my chest more so,i don't want to gamble any more even when i'm doing it i know it's wrong .

Hey Liggy :)) I'm glad your feeling a little better than the other day , I don't think for one minute you were after sympathy and sometimes coming on here and venting a bit is all it takes to clear your head a litte .

The important thing is to keep doing that and get it all out to people who understand :))

I hope your doctors visit goes well and that he's able to help :))

Speak to you soon

Alan

Hi ,i am ok and starting to recover from depression,gambling is still a problem but at least i am in a better frame of mind to address the issue,baby steps at the mo.

I believe one fuels the other. The gambling after hue for me makes me feel hopeless, depressed, skint, unstable, fed up with life. I hit a big low over the summer, hadn't lost money but was gambling every day, felt out of control, possessed,all over the place. I see myself financially lucky as that binge could have done crazy damage, mentally I was in a very dark hole. I told my partner that I just felt buried and couldn't see the light, I didn't however tell him why. Join me in getting our act together before the new year. I know how strong the urges are, especially when in a low place. We need to accept life should be normal, calm,contented. We need to stop chasing that adrenaline and the depression cloud when we accept a contented life will lift

Here i am ,1 year later,6 months gamble free,it isn't easy but all the money i saved from not gambling i have booked and paid for a holiday,my relationship with my partner is improving and i'm actually looking forward to the future. The only thing that annoys me is all the spam i get from bingo sites,texts,letters and emails,i have complained and some have stopped,some continue to harass me tho. Happier now Liggypops x

Is opening a new email account an option ?

Yes,but get letter through the door too. X

the new Daya protecion laws should make a difference. it just kicked in this week so you should start to notice a difference