Hi I have realised I'm an idiot

Hi Ali,

Well done on posting. The hardest thing I found was coming clean ! I kept my problem to myself for a year, the sleepless nights and feeling alone was the worst. You've already achieved that once, so if you feel you can do that again go for it.

You need to self exclude from all the sites you have accounts with, most sites say 6 months to 5 years, but contact customer services and say you want to self exclude for life, best way !

Also I've heard many people on here download a software called 'K9' that blocks gambling sites from your PC. Would be another great obstacle in place to prevent you gambling. Good luck and keep posting on here.

Hi thanks for your support this is what I need, I read through some of the diaries today and this helped me I closed all accounts and I am currently looking at installing this K9 software, the biggest fear is telling my other half he is not going to be happy I can normally talk my way out of not having any money or what I have done with it, but I don't want to any more I want him to know the truth and help me this might be a bit too much to ask since I have already let him down. Well wish me luck, I know I will feel better knowing he knows everything but where we go from there is another story.

Hey honey...take a look at my diary if you can
I was petrified of telling hubby...for all sorts of reasons. ..cut a very long story short...once he knew...and after the initial tears etc...it was the best thing ever...140 off days later im a new person....still me underneath...but with a great confidence and outlook on everything...if that makes sense lol...YOU will get through this love...spill all the beans. ..be open and honest...get the things in place NOW to stop you gambling...take all the help offered from here...and gamcare...and take one day at a time...to a new life !
It's worth it my love....dry those eyes and step aboard ....were a good bunch on here...and we will walk with you xxx

Thanks Loxxie your diary was the first I read, as I was reading I kept saying that's me I have to do that.. Lol thanks for the support I'm sitting waiting for him to come home very nervous but I know I need to tell him as I can't do this without him.

Hi there from a long term gambler i can tell you that IT WILL GET WORSE , best advice i can give you re online slots, is phone your bank , get a new card sent out (say u got ur wallet/purse stolen) theyll do it for free, when the new one comes, get someone u trust to scratch the Security code (last 3 digits on back) off, then you cant gamble online, it really helped me.

You can do this ali. ..be strong love...do you think he has any idea ?
If not....allow time for it to sink in...be patent with his questions..remember...you've known about it all along....if he hasn't it will take him time to get his head together.....don't expect it to all be sorted over night....tell him about the posative things you have done already in facing this addiction. ...and remember you are NOT alone in this....xx

Ooh...and forgot to say....YOU are not an idiot....
You...like me ...got sucked into this addiction. ..you ...like me...never set out to become gambling addicts....it happened....things do ....it's the choices we make now that matter...speak later....xxx

Hi Ali well done for posting .. I have had a problem with online slots for years .. It's tiring explaining about money , cutting down on this ,that juggling the bills ,robbing Peter to pay Paul, so to speak ..I lie to people all the time even if they dont need to know where my money is spent. Its exhausting ..I think I even lie to myself . I think if you have someone to support you through this then you are very lucky , telling your partner might prove a very smart move .If you don't have to do this alone, then don't .Smart people will always ask for help when they need it
be smart ..be gamble free ..xx

Thank you all

Hi Ali, welcome to the site 🙂

As you have discovered, coming clean doesn't fix this on its own 🙁 Neither does clearing down the debts or promising ourselves that time time, it will be different, "I will only spend a tenner"! We cannot win because we cannot stop!

Some good advice about the gambling (Time-Money-Location, remove one & you cannot gamble) triangle above & I hope you managed to find the strength to let this back out.

GamCare offer support for loved ones if needed but just as importantly, they are there for you! You are gambling for a reason that you will need to get to the bottom of so that you can really move forwards! Would you consider counselling? GA? Not many bad reviews for either on here from people actually working them.

You're not a bad person, choose recovery & rediscover the you that you know is inside - ODAAT

Morning ali. ..just thought I'd pop in make sure your ok ?
I was thinking about you last night...hope it went as well as it could with hubby last night x

Hey ali. ..just wondered how your doing x