Hi im new

My name is kyle I'm 32 and I am a bad gambler. 

At first it was nothing I was on and off with the odd horse race and football bet nothing much about £10-20 a week if that. 

Then it got boring not much winning I didn't think much of it so I moved on and what a bad move that was I went to online slots "/.

What a mistake that was its been the bane of my life for years now lieing to my self and to the people I love, hiding what I'm doing in shame but not being able stop. 

I'm on gamstop I did a year then got straight back on it then another 5 now, but this time I moved onto my wifes account with her concent, she never went on them so I thought why not, she didn't know how much I was spending becuase I did all the finances it's always been this way. 

I was opening other accounts in her name telling her I was getting free spins for depositing ect but the reality is I was losing then closing accounts banning my self off them for 5 years and then I was running out of sites to gamble on I closed the last 2 a few months back. 

Then I was in limbo I started watching steams and they was playing on none gamstop I didn't know this was a thing so for 3 months I have 4 accounts on these sites buying bonuses and turbo spinning my money away. 

I had to send staments for something and I looked at them I cried in the bath as I was reading throught the past 3 months the shame of it realising how deep I have gone.

I just told the wife about it all showed her my statements and everything she was supportive but said this is the last time no more. 

I am on day 2 as I didn't know what to do on day 1 I'm so disappointed in my self so depressed not eating or sleeping.

I will continue to try and not gamble but I'm glad I have found somewhere I can open up. 

Thank you for reading and I wish you all the best on your journey.