I can't do this anymore

I have made the decision that I must stop doing the same thing over and over. Everytime I get paid I spend the lot on gambling, I've excluded from the bookies, casino and online but I gamble in bingo and AGC and sometimes I win but even then I go back and lose it all... I got paid yesterday and it's all gone and I owe £700 to a friend out of my next pay, that's after chasing and owing out every pay day for the last 12 months.. so yesterday I excluded from AGC I've shredded my ATM cards and credit cards, and will go in the bank in future with my Id and withdraw cash for food. That way at night when banks are closed I can't gamble, my friends know not to lend me money anymore, I've realised I need to stop or I'll have no life. I've found myself telling friends I can't go places with them all because I'm addicted to the buzz of gambling and everything else seems boring. Nothing excites me like sitting at the machines plowing money into them all the while telling myself this is idiotic you've worked all month for this... I may as well go give all my money to charity as I know I'll never get it back again. So today is my first day g/f, I already feel a burden or dirty little secret has been lifted from me, I can now stop the lying and start the living 

Here's to being hopeful