i hit rock bottom

Hi Duncan

I know how you feel mate, I have attempted suicide myself in the past and it was all to do with putting money in a stupid machine. amazingly after that attempt I still carried on gambling for three years.

i have been 24 days clean so far and it feels good, I am hoping that this is it now and I will be clean for ever

keep reading and posting on here, it will help

good luck mate everyone is rooting for you

If you read my post today you will see I have also hit rock bottom.

I would like to support you Duncan in your quest to start a gamble free life.

We have to do it this time.

We are all here for you.

today i am taking it one step at a time last night i walked through the door into my first GA meeting and feel i have found something that will be of great help to me and look forward to following the steps to help me overcome this terrible addiction. I would like to use this forum as another tool in helping me find the best way through this for me and my family so the outcome will be nothing but bright

so thats it one foot forward and none back my name is duncan and i am a compulsive gambler

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Hi Dunc, I find your threads/posts motivating and moving, you need to be congratulated on your continued absistence. I am trying to claw inspiration from someone like you to drag me out of the hell-hole I have put myself in. How did you manage to eventually stop chasing that mammoth loss (mine is similar), its eats away at me every minute of the day, also having told my partner on endless occasions the gambling was over, (with the deal it was over if i gambled again) how do I for the rest of my life keep this from her.? Also if you were in any debt, how did you deal with that on an emotional level as well as a payment level.

duncanmac wrote: today i am going to try to start my life as a non gambler for twenty years i have had a compulsion to gamble whenever possible and now i feel i have lost everything i started yesterday with the intention of taking my own life and met a samariton who showed me what a coward i would be so i went home and have set about confessing to all around me the lies and deciept i have used to keep my addiction fuelled. today i can with honesty say enough is enough i will put my life to trying to make amends for the terrible things i have done and the hurt financially and more so emotionally so any help and advice will be genuinley welcomed with open arms

mm guess I am in a similar place suicude is more of a regular thought than confession