I'm a dead loss

Incredible first time i've heard of a bookies kicking someone into touch when they are losing.

Welcome to Gamcare. Yes there is lots of support here so get involved and help yourself and others.

Have you got support? Might be worth speaking to Gamcare on the phone or email if not.

All the best Tri

Thanks for your support Tri, to be honest I was actually annoyed that my spending on gambling was being questioned by the bookies, hence why I asked to be permanently excluded, all rather embarrassing! They said that they were into 'responsible gambling', I only wish they had done this 2years ago then I might not have got myself into so much trouble. I only played on the one (very well known) site and was addicted to one particular slot game. Three months ago I had my bank on the phone as they could see all the gambling transactions, I thought that would make me stop but it didn't. I'm hoping the latest 'kick into touch',

with support, will help me on the road to recovery.

Jan

Hi Jan - I'm new to the forum too but your post struck a chord with me. I've been gambling for 2 years and in that time we've lost our house due to my stupidity. Online blackjack the worst thing ever for me. Totally fixed, complete con but still I can't stop myself. Have gambled thousands. Would never have believed I could become the person I have. Feel ashamed and guilty and very depressed. Think nothing of lying to my family where previously was scrupulously honest. This addiction is utterly toxic. I wish you all the very best. It does at least help to know you're not alone. Take care -Alli

Hi Jan

Just wanted to say well done for joining this forum and wanting to become free from gambling.

I too am in my fifties and gambled for just on 3 years, losing a large amount of money, getting me into serious debt along the way. I joined this forum in January 2013. I have been gamble free since then, apart from a few hours "moment of madness" this time last year. I can honestly say that gambling contributed to me not being able to recognise the person I had always been and making me the person I became. From an honest, hardworking, sensible, astute minded woman, into a desperate (and at times), a penniless wreck of a person.

I wanted to write this on your diary to prove that with this forum's help, some self control and commitment on your part, you can definitely get your life back on track. Feel free to read any part of my diary.

I wish you the best of luck and stay strong.

Take care.

Feb.

Hi just wanted to say i hope like many of us here you find all the support and comfort you need. We're all battling what seems like your own private hell. You're not alone. My destruction of choice was online slots it has almost taken away everything i hold dear i think i found this site just in time. Please stay strong. Together we can beat this nasty illness. Xx.

With the greatest respect to Jan57, I just wanted to highlight this diary (from last year) to new members who are struggling with urges. This diary hurt to read when I read it last year. I have never forgotten it. It still cuts through me. There are no winners on bingo/slots. There are no happy endings. The big winners are the big losers. Problem gambling escalates. Suzy