I'm finally facing up to my gambling addiction

Morning m_york,

How are you feeling today?

PA

Feeling reflective. Not been a good day. You realise how bombarded you are by gambling adverts everywhere you look. It's impossible to avoid.

Trying to ignore it though. I can't place a bet cos of suspending all accounts so that's a good thing.

Wow m_york I really empathise with the position your in. I was in exactly the same one a little over 3 weeks ago. All I can is advise come clean. You may feel at the time it's the worst thing you could ever do...a million thoughts and fears racing through your mind about the consequences of your actions. The hurt your going to cause....if I'm a 100% honest I think the main thing I was scared of was the consequences. Like I was gonna get a boll*****g so what!! I'm a big girl what's the worst that's gonna happen, plus I deserved it!! I made my mum cry, my dad put his head in his hand in despair and my partner storm out the house shout and scream at me but I'm still here. And I'm so blessed as so are they all to still here with me. I'm very lucky. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused but I will do my best everyday to prove to them that I will never be so stupid or selfish again in my life. And the best thing to come out of it is that I'm free from that gut wrenching, desperate, self loathing, suicide contemplating mess of a human being I was during my gambling addiction. So even if everyone had scattered and left me as I thought they would and wouldn't have blamed them if they did, I was free from that person and prison in my mind that I'd created and it is this most stress relieving feeling ever. And even if I could rewind that day and know that everyone of my worst fears about coming clean had come true I would still do it.

Sorry for rambling I hope you understand the point I'm trying to make

m_york

Hows things? Well I hope........ We are surrounded by gambling establishments, adverts, sponsorships and whatever else. I agree there's too many but their not breaking any laws. It's something we all must live with. I probably notice them more than, say my wife because I'm a recovering gambler, she doesn't care less! These adverts didn't make me or you an addict.

The recovery road isn't an easy one. I think in our GA meetings in the past year we had around 100 new members, sadly only 16 of them managed to achieve their 90 days. Sad but true. My desire is to remain free from gambling, I get myself to the weekly meetings, my wife doesn't demand me to go, I need to attend as I want to suceed.

Looking forward to hearing an update. All the best.

Hi myork.

I find myself In a similar situation to yours and have finally come clean to my wife.

I would end up betting thousands at the casino to chase losses and think if i got even I would quit and everything would be back to before this nightmare started...but as we all know, we will never see that money again ...it's not ours anymore.

You need to tell the misses - I told her last night and even though we've not spoken since, I feel like now i don't have to chase losses to make things right so i wouldn't have to tell her. She knows now and whether I win the money back or not is not going to change things- so the motivation is gone.

Fortunately not in debt but decided to tell her before I got to that point.

Hope my rambling made sense and good luck.

I'm hoping this is the start to my recovery so hopefully you can start too.

Rupidodo

Hi m_york!

The first step is really the hardest. I'm glad that I joined this forum as well. I feel better even if I just read other people's posts here. It gives me hope that I could shake off my habit completely. Hoping that you could, too!

I'm new here,it's been long 8 years that I gamble,it's very sad I just can't stop I lost it all,I have 2 kids and now I'm pregnant.

Hi girlyquinn
Welcome to the forum. ..
Firstly I would say start a diary on here....it's easier for us to support you on you're on page...
Congratulations on you're pregnancy. ....soooo like many of us....you're an addict love ...it happens so gradually. ..none of us sat down and thought....oohhh let's become an gambling addict...but....you can turn things around love....I'm sure at the moment you're thinking it's impossible....but ...it can be done..
Give the helpline a ring love...best thing I did. ...they've heard it all before....nothing will shock them...they'll point you in the right direction to start to untangle the web that addiction wraps you in...
Take a read of my diary...it may help you....it may not....but it will make you realise you are not alone.....x