Thank you for taking the time to read my story
The problem I seem to have is that whether I lose £50 or £1500 it is the same loss feeling to me.
It is the same feeling regardless of how much I lose. Because of this and the fact the upset feeling does not go away day after day week after week -Â I feel that I have to chase and win it back and end of putting more and more money in chasing because in the past I have been able to win it back.
In my mind I say whether I lose a bit more I cannot feel any worse than I do now but at least there is a chance I can win it back.
Does anyone have any advice
I have a friend that is addicted to C*****e it doesn't matter wether he does one line or 6 bags he is in exactly the same situation chasing that highÂ
Gambling is very similar in that after a certain point the stake almost completely loses all meaning you are just chasing the buzz which takes more and more to getÂ
Yes HWG but that's the addiction seeking it's fix.
obviously the truth is that it's not all the same but it's a complex addiction of self destruction mixed up with why is this happening to me?....why my luck?... just one more go.
It's a trance.... A stupor filled with a soup of drugs in your system...during a gambling session an addict will not really know what they are feeling until all the money has gone. The feelings are so confused on adrenaline dopamine and fear triggers that it is in for a penny in for everything.
Believe me during the cold walk home I reflected on my actions with depression and pain but I would go into a numb mode to get myself home and into bedÂ
I will tell you straight...I couldn't watch telly or do anything....that's if I had any electricity or food! Just wanted to sleep probably in the hope I would feel slightly better afterwardsÂ
I never want that feeling again which is why I finally started a proper recovery.
It took my dignity my self respect my time and it was destroying me. I started getting my life back in 2015
I hope and trust you will do the sameÂ
Best wishes from everyone on the forum
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