To put it simply, I came out to my girlfriend last week and she was really supportive but all I think about is gambling and when I can gamble I promised her I won't after she spent all her wages last month on online slots but it's all I think about, il put a couple hundred in and in the last month I've won on total of about 5000 and only put in about 1000 but I spend it and make sure I loose on purpose, I don't want the money, I just want to press the button, I've tried fact slots and demo play but it's not the same, if I took the money out it wouldn't be too bad but it's not for the money, it's Monopoly money to me, I'm in so much debt which could have been sorted if I withdrawed it but I'd rather spend it on... Nothing. Then after I regret it not because I lost but because I can't continue.
Hi AROB47 and welcome to the forum. It's great that you've been honest with your girlfriend and that she is supportive. You're showing a lot of insight there in realising that you aren't gambling for the money, you just love the act of gambling. If you'd like to explore that some more, you can call us on 0808 8020 133 from 8am to midnight every day. We're also here for your girlfriend. She is very welcome to call us about her own gambling or yours. We can also refer you to counselling if you think that would help you. If both you and your girlfriend have a problem with online gambling, you might find it useful to download blocking software to help you stop - and many internet service providers let you block gambling sites at their end.
We hope you stay on the forum and keep posting. Many people find starting a recovery diary helpful for motivation and insight into your gambling. You'll also receive a lot of support from the people here.
Wishing you well in your recovery,
Deirdre
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