Life ruined

Billyhlife93 wrote:

I have been to GA sessions i used to attend them and they didnt help because in my head i always feel like i didnt want to stop....... ....... i felt strong enough to stop on my own but everything they said to me has become true.

And now hopefully in your head you do want to stop.

"but everything they said to me has become true". Probably because they have seen it all before.

"felt strong enough to stop on my own". I'm not, almost everyone isn't. "Strength" is nothing to do with it

If it was accepted fact that GA has the best long term sucess rate, why would you try anything else ?

Go back to GA.

Two hours, twice a week and 50p for tea and biscuits - why wouldn't you ?

Hi all,

Just wanted to let you know that i havent gambled since i last wrote on here theres still my whole life to go yet, but im proud of myself for resisting the urges and beliveing that things will improve for me over time. I have set out a plan of all the things i want to achieve and to do now ive stopped gambling which really helps keep me motivated. The gamblock on my phone has really helped me to not bet as if i ever felt like i wanted to have a bet i couldnt physically do it on my mobile phone, my girlfriend is also keeping a close eye on me and making sure i havent been gambling, she seems a lot less stressed out lately and we seem to do more things together and are spending more time talking to eachother rather than me sitting in her bedroom watching the racing. The only time i tend to struggle is watching football in my head because its become a habit my mind is feeding me betting odds but im sure that will pass and i will start to enjoy sport again as i lost all my enjoyment of sport when gambling it was more like a business to me, a business that went under.

I am still finding it very difficult thinking of all the money ive lost and what i have done to my loved ones, its extremley painful and makes me feel sick, i have also been quite depressed lately due to the fact i have hardly any money anymore to pay bills and one big win isnt going to solve that, its hard to get my head around but as someone said to me on these forums in 2 years time i may be a different person with a whole better life so im focused on that knowing these dark times will pass.

Im hoping next week to be able to log back on and write another post saying i still havent gambled and for "my days since last gambled" to be double figures. I have found this forum really helps me and i never believed on that dark day when i lost all the money i sold my car for, that i would find an escape from the dangerous game on here.

Thank you for all the support i really appericate it, you have all given me hope and dertermination to do this. Any other advice or success stories i would love to hear. Thanks again i will post next week.

Billy

Hey Billy ,

It's great to hear you sounding so different from the guy that turned up here a week ago :)).

Your feeling's regarding past event's and money lost will haunt you for a while and that's only natural mate but be assured that with time and more importantly gamble free time under your belt those feelings will water themselves down and as I was told on here a few years ago by someone far wiser " It's ok to look back , just don't stare " .

Keep up the good work my friend and seek help where you feel you need it .

I look forward to another good post in a weeks time but until then " I wish you well " :))

Thank you “A 9” appericate that mate 🙂 thanks for your help

Hi mate,

Yeah we can do it together, its seriously hard work resisting to bet but im gonna make sure i go and do something instead of thinking about betting. Yeah its abnormal to sell your car and to spend all the money on nothing but to gamblers its just another loss, theres no care in gambling it takes your soul out of you. Dangerous dangerous stuff. Ive put blocks in place so i cant bet which is good because to be honest im fed up with it, its destroyed my life i could of had the life i always dreamed of when gambling if i didnt gamble haha i mean what more do i say...

Plus its all crooked and the betting apps will always try to get you back by ploughing you with emails or adverts every 5 minutes on tele or at the bus stop you will see an advertisment. Its digusting to think little young men starting out there life at 17/18 all happy with there wages from their first job are subject to this type of advertisement that ruins lives and causes sucidie is a DISGRACE. I remember being that young boy/man a bit of harmless fun untill it stole my life from underneath me.

Anyway thats a whole different subject but we can do this i dont know how old you are but theres always time to change mate im 8k in debt havent got enough money to pay bills at the minute but somehow through this addiction kept my job. So im going to let my girlfriend have my wages im not having access to money again. And one day she might suprise me of to how well ive done 🙂

Billy