Hi all . just wanted to introduce myself. . i am 35 and have been gambling since 18. I have done approx 10 years ( multiple sentences/remands) due to fund my gambling, all though it was to make money is what i would say untill the last couple years. Denials a powerful thing. I know i am consumed by gambling . It is all i do and think about and as soon as i get money is all that matters. If im not gambling im thinking of ways to get money to gamble. I havent been on holiday. Learnt to drive or even go out really (unless bookies or work). I want more from life now but do i deserve it i dont know . I got alot to say on gambling and crime but thats for another day . thanks for reading ( i hope ?) and will be posting regularly from now on . ps i have been attending ga meetings again ( 3rd meeting this week) but gambled every day also . feel sick re reading last line but true . i dont fear much but i do fear dying an active gambler or worse my Mum passing and i have not gave it my all .
@southernnortherner15Â
Hi. I’m always interested when people go to GA but carry on gambling like you have been doing. Have you told your group that you’ve gambled?
What blocks have you put in place to help yourself through the early days or what blocks could you put in place to make it harder for you?
I don’t believe any of us want this life for ourselves and we are all capable of getting out of the circle of gambling or the hole that we find ourselves in. You have to have had enough. Have you?
Chris.
@chris-uk . hi chris thanks for reading my post. I have gamstop which prevents me from betting online and yes group know as i constantly give new dates and speak in group . As a compulsive gambler part of me just wants to control it but naive as i am even i know thats it not possible . gambling has been the devil on my shoulder since i can remember but sad as it is is always there .Â
Hello. I am the same age as you. I am currently gambling, but my friends do not support me in this. And you?
Hi
Denial was based up on my fears.
In getting honest with my self I had a good chance of a healthy healing recovery.
Dave L
@southernnortherner15 So what gambling are you doing and is there anything else that you could do to help yourself?
Chris.
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Cool name southernnorthener, as im just the same, heart and blood northern and caught in the southern trap.
With which brings myself to where you find your self. Gambling / drinking / drugs / s*x all a trap of sorts - designed to unbalance the chemicals in our head. Simple equation my friend and now for the journey back into redemption.
Firstly, your finding that your not alone as being in the depth of addiction is very lonely place to be.
I did read that the opposite of addiction is connection, so maybe investigate in yourself where / when you became disconnected with reality.
A line that grabbed my attention from your first post was regarding your Mum and not giving it your all !! Superb and applauding that line and recognising that this is also a ' value ' based illness you are battling . Just by being here, shows the values ingrained in your self, now reconnect with themÂ
Keep up with your GA and also educate your self in what the hell has been going on and hold tight in this roller-coaster ride your embarking on as you reset your emotions and getting in sync with them.
I wish you well
@lonelyloser Hi LL,
Your username made me sad and I get where you are. As hard as it may seem now, don't stay in the shadows !Â
I really believe just by the choice of username and the fact that your here, that you are on the threshold of wanting to get out of the hole that you are in. And bizarrely enough that takes courage, hence completely contradiction of your username.
Please look in flipping your username - Words have power and despite the place you find yourself there's lots of help out there.
Dig
I wish you well
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