hi
i have posted on other sites before but first time here
currently trying to control a gambling addiction that has ruined my life. i know i have a problem and i deeply regret it , but im just to far in now. last time i posted asking for help i had maybe lost 10000 of inhertiance money. everyone then told me to stop i would never get it back. since then in the last month i have had it back twice, last time was last week i begged prayed for someone to be looking out for me and for me to at least get some of it back. i did . i won about 10000 in about 3 days . i was happy again for about a day , then before i know it i was focused on still being down 1500 pound overall(which i probably wasnt as when i was winning have been leading a extravagant lifestyle) before i know it i was transferring in 1500 to try get it back , then of course it was then 3000, so on and so on you know how it works.
i dont know how i was ever stupid enough to do it again as literally last week i had a knife to my wrists ready to do it.
now i am where i am now lowest of low barely anything left and so so so lonely ..think that why im posting here as i have no1 else to go to
i cant except these losses
unfortunately i dont think i am on here to be able to tell a story of how i stopped gamblng i just need advise from someone
i hav told myself if i can ever get back up to 11000 in the bank i would go and tell my parents and maybe it would be easier to explain only having lost 10000. i know if i kill myself they would say they would of helped etc...but everyone would say that ..know one is actually gonna understand this
by the way my situation is i thought i gambled abit to much last year , mainly wages etc but some weeks was a full weeks wage ..but never savings .. was still to much ..this year my new years resolution was not to gamble. i managed through chritmas etc and 3 weeks into january and never. had 22000 in the bank my own house a long term girlfriend i lived with and im only just away to be 21 (i inherited money ) and most of all i had quit gambling so it was all staying that way . untill my girlfriend left me on the last week of january . i was left in this lonely house. it started off maybe 100 at night playing blackjack or a slot machine . gradually got worse . first few weekends i was up it was great . i had amazing times. at one point i must of been up about 7000 overall. but i just couldnt stop. its like a trance. anyway lost it all twice since then and been back up ..almost . it think if i had ever got to the point of even i would of stopped because i really do hate life hate gambling. these last 2 months have been torture. but then i am where i am now dont have any big sums of money left to put in to even get it back . or some of it back . think i have about 7000 waiting to clear from the casino but i know that will just go back in. i tell myself that i am gonna need to play and if i can get 4000 profit thats it im telling parents getting help etc. if not im just gonna have to play till i have nothing then life is over
i think i just need someone to speak to
help me ..life is over..hate myself
Neilmac,
You obviously need help quickly. Chasing losses is a nightmare as we know. Contact Gamcare for free counselling and or go to your local GA meeting. Gamcare may even be able to give you the phone number of someone on the Forum that can talk to you about your situation. If you are depressed make an appointment to see your GP as soon as possible. You need all the help going so seek it out.
You say you have 7k awaiting clearance. Draw it and give it to a trusted family member to keep for you. Put your finances in the hands of that same person.
Your life is far from over. I have felt the same as you before and turned my life around. You can do the same and find happiness. It can be done. Please believe me.
Others may post advice on here for you as well.
Remember, help is available. You have come to the right place to sort things out.
Hello Neilmac,
Your first step to helping yourself has already occurred by you reaching out. That takes courage in of itself.
We can all relate to your situation, as we have also gone thru the emotional and financial roll coaster you are going thru.
You say,"You can't except these losses", but you must if you are ever going to recover. For every dollar you will ever win, You will lose three. If you win this 10,000 back you will lose 30,000. If you win 30,000, you will lose 90,000, and so.
Make this lose your line in the sand, so to speak, or else it will get worse. Take it from a long time gamble who is now reformed (Hopefull).
Fighting this addiction requires you to be vigelent at all times. Not getting relaxed that you can gamble and stop at any time. You can't. We can't. Once you get the thrill of a bet, the next bet is on your mind.
Anything unearned is easy. Prompting you to think, I can do this anytime. You can't.
Find something meaningful and or productive to do with your, to combat your free time. Also, create barriers for accessing money to gamble. The more barriers and safegaurds you put in, the easier it will be for you to stop and think, do I want to go thru this aggrevation again, do I really feel like losing my money again?
I am hoping for your success Neilmac.
Kind Regards,
AM
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