need help tonight

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thanks.im at the stage where I win.but recently losing.i don't know wether to give up completely.or gamble once a month.yrly or what.i used to play 2 pence pushers.then moved on to the £500 machines in the company of gambling friends and friendship with the staff.

I don't want to lose them but if I have to .it will be cold turkey or moderate gambling with fun money but I have debts and in reality every penny should go to debts.i gave up alcohol 3 yes ago.so looking for a buzz.some fun don't know what's left for fun I'm 55 tired.need to decide what to do not sure if I have a problem or it's all in my head I have a problem 

got by most months but spent budgets.now having to borrow from parent.plus sell gold rings. parent doesn't know I gamble.but she used to do bingo for fun often when she was in her 60s.she is 87 now and housebound.

my wife gave me a gambling leaflet last night cos we both lost.she gambles too.but not as much.she said 2p machines or nothing. I don't know what to do then she said ok once a month I said never again I live in a seaside town full of arcades.i do not gamble online.i watch gamblers on YouTube for fun.i said to wife.they will be unsubscribed if I stop.is it still ok to watch them.

in my experience no one should tell you your journey to stop, my journey is that I can not gamble on anything, I know 2p would become10ps would become hundreds of pounds won or lost on a horse until I was right back where I started. the win will never be enough and the loss will always lead me to chasing so there is only one outcome for me in gambling. The cycle of depression and upset it causes isn’t worth it, once you’ve accepted you have a problem then your loved ones need to trust you’ll try and never do it again, a drug addict can’t have an occasional hit. I have only been 29 days without a bet after 25 years of compulsive behaviour losing hundreds of thousands of pounds and I feel free, I can’t watch a horse race or greyhounds and maybe you should consider the same thing with YouTube, why taunt yourself by watching the thing you can’t do??

the money is gone, the time wasted is gone, but you have more time and more money why give it away again?

only my thoughts 

I have played 2 pence machines for 45 yes.i always said to wife we don't go into the room with the adult  machines.then one day we did we lost and lost.then I read and learned.i started winning .picking the right machines at the right time.but that was trial and error till we found a machine that was paying out.usually after teasing other machines with money to test them.

lately.its been an unlucky streak.my budget is limited.i have debts.the semi pros in the arcades have the same knowledge as me.but they are self employed  and wealthy with money to risk with big bankrolls .I am not that is the difference.not the knowledge .

I know nothing about horses or football at all.just land based arcades. it's harder to umuse ourselves in a seaside town.they are dull in winter and fun in summer.my wife says those gambling in summertime are tourists that no nothing about frui machines but are here once a year with money to waste as it's holiday money for them.

I started playing bingo in bingo halls to keep away from arcades.the most I could lose was small amount of money on  tickets.we won.but it was dull.full of pensioners filling up their evenings. the pace was slow.we knew nobody

nobody spoke.it was deadly silent when the balls came out.

my wife said ok.do you want to go bk to 2p pusher machines once a week like we did for yrs before we learned about the big machines.i said ok but it's not the same.

things came to ahead last night when I spent money on the machine instead of the rent.

sold wedding rings this morning.they are now gone forever.i told wife.we will get better ones when we have money again.they weren't worth much. but I have embarrassed myself and wife. we had money last month.we won hundreds.i should have banked it.saved it. but I didn't. I risked it again.