New Here

Hi Georgia,

Welcome. I know the feeling well, I stopped for a while and was happy, then I started again. So annoyed with myself. 

This is a great first step for both of us, and definitely a huge step to you getting those keys. 

We got this 😀

re: New Here Hi i'm starting my recovery this week, ive tried before but never with much intention. On Tuesday i told my partner, my daughter and my employer that I have been an addict for 7 years and have stolen from them all and lied to them, betrayed their trust and at the time I didnt care. My employer who should have called the police which is what I expected, i just wanted it all to be over, has let me keep my job and repay what I have taken, my partner a very good man, is more concerned about me that anything I have done, and my beautiful daughter who despite me stealing her savings has offered to come home and help me repay my debt. The guilt has been tearing me apart, and to be honest right now this feels worse, I have hurt every single one of them, ruined all their lives and I have never felt so much love in my life. I cannot go back, its not an option. do you guys think its actually possible to become gamble free

Hi, I was gamble free for 3yrs and was happy. Because I had done well and not played I was under the illusion that I could be better this time, of course I wasn’t. I won enough money to pay back some of my debt already accumulated through gambling, however with that i wanted more and ended up losing it all. I feel so ashamed and mad at myself so here I am to try again.

it’s good you told your family, I haven’t enough courage to tell mine, I told my husband the first time and I can’t do it to him again, or too scared to do it to him again. 

All I want right now is not see all the money transfers I have made when I go on my online banking. We just have to keep telling ourselves it will get better, we will do better and be better people.

We are all different, but I am so relieved that its out in the open now, and I think it will be harder to relapse now everyone close to me knows what I have done, I just have to work on getting back to the person I used to be and want to be, money doesn't mean much to me, it is only money but the lies and deceit and the trust I have lost is in my mind unforgivable, I intend on spending every single day making it up to them  and hopefully showing myself that I can do this