New here... Overwhelmed!

Hi Guys,

It funny, I've not shared my story with only my wife and counsellor up until this post and now gained some great like minded friends.

@Mark - we both have to get better for our kids and I appreciate your honesty as I'm the same with regards to the thought of never gambling. You've done over 50 days which is incredible, you should really be proud. How's this affected things at home? Improved? My Wife told me the other day that she does feel I can protect her & my son which killed me as it's totally true. I hate what I've caused, If I could reverse time then I really would. I've not gambled for 7 days and don't even have the urge... Why? because I've got no money in my bank. Thankfully my wife has all that's left, I'm too scared to discuss the outstanding bills siting unpaid. Do keep me posted on your journey too.

@MBA - Hi, interesting you mention tennis it's my sports betting speciality or fail... More fail. The mad thing is like you I win and win BIG! but I do something stupid and desperate and loss it. I'll never forget Jurgen Melzer cost me ALOT on an Acca and I vowed to never back him. I love playing the old 'top trumps' game when deciding who to back, H2H, recent form, height, age etc... I've missed out on the US open by being skint. Deep down are you wanting to give up? After ATP Tour Finals is a good time to try and stop as they rest for over 30 days. Do you find it amazing how often tennis is being playing, weekly same players going around circuit. Most non-gamblers think there are only 5-10 comps all year. What is it about tennis that draws you?

@All - I really want a few grand to trying and chase my loses, make a diary about every bet and try and learn. I'm 100% in a chasing mood.. I'm scared cat will be out of bag when people discover my deposit to buy family house is no longer around and we are renting for longer then planned. Anyone else in a similar situation?

Thanks for listening