Relapse, just gutted

Unfortunately no I don't think it ever leaves us. You have to keep your guard up not get complacent.

Time to get back to basics build the blocks up high use support from family and friends, try counselling and/or GA.

You know all this you've done 2 years.

KTF

Hi Lec101.

Sorry to hear about the relapse. At GA meetings members in the same position of you tell the full story of how and why so other members can help further.

Was it anger or stress related, was it a planned bet because the time and place were right, like a loved one being away.

Opening up a little more helps you get the support you will need and may explain to yourself the reason behind the slip-up.

Don't be to down beat you did extremely well for two years, one day I hope to reach that milestone but only around 60 days so far for me. That's why I need to learn of others, like yourself what drives us to relapse.

I don't think this addiction ever leaves our bodies completely, we can just put blockers both external and internal into place to keep it locked inside. For me a strong mind is one of the main internal blockers along with controlling stress levels.

All the best. Hope you can provide a little more background.

Hi Shep and Oldham. Not pre planned, no. Have been through a relationship break up in the last two years, coped with joint house sale and people moving in (I live next door...), legal financial stuff and divorce, well Civil Partnership dissolved...then Sat night saw a pic of her and new boyfriend. just snapped. Should have rung gamcare, but didn't until yesterday morning. Too late.

So the self loathing and all that, I feel like this is a massive deal. I have asked to see my old counsellor. Thank you for commenting, I know that I'm not alone. Just feel such an idiot. Thankfully I didn't win, which I think makes everything worse, and I didn't do too much financial damage, but that isn't the point, as we all know.

Hi lec101,

Thanks for your post. You sound like you've been through a lot in the last two years, sorry to hear that. You've done brilliant not having a bet in that time. Sounds like you owned up to your mistake straight away, which takes some doing, also being honest about the relapse is a strength in itself. Don't beat yourself up about it, sounds like you are focused on finding the root of the cause by seeing your old counsellor. Hope all goes well with that and you'll no doubt grow stronger from this.

All the best.

Hi lec, you can do this you have done it before. It's a mistake that you will have taken a big lesson from. Look at the blocks you have as there is obviously room for more. Don't beat yourself up over it look forwards.

Good luck with your recovery

You cant be too hard on yourself, if you are then you will never get back on track with your recovery . Get positive again and focussed ! good luck !