So I have been looking at this forum for some time, even in the past when I was gambling, but never actually joined just read the forums and realised I was not alone.
My story:
So basically I have been gambling for quite a while, since about 19-20 (I am now 30), over the years I must have lost thousands upon thousands in total, But its never been as bad as I am now. Last year I quite gambling for months and thought of it as a thing of the past. My vice was roullette on FOBT's, I had planned that 2019 was going to be the year I never gambled, sadly it has been my worst year and we are only in April. It all started at the end of January, previous to this I was living with my GF of 5 years however she moved to New Zealand and I did not want to go with her (Maybe I should Have).
I never gambled online because a part of me knew it would be trouble, however this year it all changed. In the bookies I could only ever take £250 out of the cash machine a day, so that was always my limit. however online there are no limits.
In about 2 months I have lost around 7.5 grand. from online roullette on various occasions I have had the oppurtunity to set myself straight withdraw and never gamble again,,, HA. The other week I had enough money to cover all my debts I left my phone and went out for 2 days with friends when i got back the money still hadnt been taken from my online account. I obviously canceled the withdrawal and threwit all back in. I asked my parents to help and came clean to them. I joined Gamstop and self exluded myself.
I had sorted my finances out, albeit with owing some money out for some time. However the other day I downloaded another gambling site to see if i could get on it, I could.. I just used a different email than the one I had provided on Gamstop. Last night I lost 2,1K, and now I have no where to go after exhausting all my leads, I cannot feed myself this month or pay for travel to work. I do not know how I am going to make it till my next pay.
I have hit rock bottom, butI determined to change this isnt the life I want to live..
Hi Lukas
I've just read your story and it is much the same of us all on here. I blew my whole wages on Monday cried my eyes out yet again. The penny dropped after 8 years of hard gambling and I thought I can't do this anymore, I finally realised I am not going to have that big win to clear my debt. I have and slowly reversed my winnings to end up with nothing yet again. You see I was greedy, always wanted to win more, never happy with 3 or 5k as that wasn't enough. I could of won 50k and still blown it all. So on Tuesday morning I went on gamstop and decided now is the time to to take back control. Yes it will take me years to pay off debts and I will never recover my life long savings but now I need my sanity. 3 days in and the urges are there, but I can't play as I'm now self excluded, that takes the pressure off a little
I hope you can be strong, this site is amazing and the people are great, we're all in this together. I'm thinking how I'd be in 2 months, it's not long but I'm positive I'll be in a better frame of mind mentally.
Good luck and we're all here for you x
Thank you f6ir your response TraceyJ,
Its funny before this last spell, I would tell people how I used to have a problem and I dont gamble anymore, my life was going so well, and in the space of 2 months Ive ruined it, I had a holiday booked with friends in a few week which I now cant go on, I have a few other things planned for summer and I am determined to atleast try and get some joy out of 2019, its crazy because its like when I gamble Im not me, I go into a zone where I sit for hours watching a wheel spin around, and it only hits me when its over and ive lost all my money.
Ive been thinking if i could just rewind time and go back and make the right choice but sadly I cant. I hope i can change, I feel so pathetic. Its literally going to kill me if I dont stop
Right I’m a newby, just read lukus’s story and I’m in the same pickle! Been gambling now on and off for years now, I’m 40 years old became a grandad on Sunday morning and over the last 2 nights I’ve blown ove 2k on vertul dogs and roulette!! Why would grown man do this?
It’s like something comes over me ,I mean I won £1700 withdraw and an hour later I’ve reversed it and off I go again blowing that and more in a gamble trance on COMPUTER f*****g DOGS !
I’m now penny less not paid bills and contemplating selling my car that I only brought last week and I’ve also been kicked out by my wife of 23 years as this has obviously happened a few times over the years , and I really don’t see a way out , I self exclud I find more down market sights ,I really can’t see a way out and it’s disroying my life .
Sorry to be so downbeat I just don’t see how a 40 year old man can be so weak and obsessed with it , though it is in spats the more money I’ve got the more I spend . Suppose that’s why we’re all here though,
Well that’s me guys
It's ok to be down beat, I think me personally had to get to the lowest of low to realise I was ruining my life, I've blown well over 100k in the last 2 years and yes I sold my car last month just to cover my rent and blew the last 300 on slots. I had to stop and couldn't feel worse and it was the gambling that was making me feel like this. I was in my own world while playing, happy when the win lines came in but I just couldn't stop, banked then withdrew every time. Then when I lost the lot I just cried thinking what a bloody idiot I am. I've been gf for only 3 days but in that 3 days I've thought a lot. I have my health and the rest of my life, many people I know have been diagnosed with serious illnesses and would pay millions to get their health back, they don't have an option to get better, I do.
It's going to be a long hard road and I'm taking one day at a time, but with the help and support WE can do this
Stay strong and there's always someone here to chat, moan, rant and cry with. You both have so many years ahead of happiness
I truly wish you both every bit of luck and happiness x
Thanks Tracey
I think after all’s said and done it’s will power that will get us all where we need to be , it’s not nice there’s so many people with this problem but it’s nice that we can talk and try to help each other .
100k is a staggering amount to lose in 2 years, I really do wish you the best and I hope you pull yourself out of this addiction and same to everyone else who wants to!! Thanks again !!!LETS BEAT THE BOOKMAKER BY NOT PLAYING!!
Funny how these gambling sites take your money instantly but when you try to do a withdrawal, it seems to take days to process it! They know their customers all right don't they
Not just that but when u make a withdrawal u can cancel it within the first 24 hours.how can that be right? U cant cancel a deposit though!
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
