Something to remember

В This applies for all addictions in this world..just wanted to share this, coming bk from the grip is not easy, and am experiencing some awful emotions today. But we all have a choice! I made mine - im choosing life! This "letter" mentions 12 step program which i believe is really helpful for many of us in this recovery journey...nothing changes if nothing changes.....

"В Hi,

I think you will remember me, or have forgotten already.

I'm the one who hates GOD, and that HIGHER POWER you believe in now.

I'm the one that loathes those meetings and that programme you're on,

To all of you that deal with me, you will suffer MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY and SPIRITUALLY or perhaps you will DIE slowly if you're lucky.

Remember me now.

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I'm the disease of ADDICTION, the CUNNING, BAFFLING and POWERFUL one.

I have killed many of you; I've made them suffer that's what I do.

And that's what I want from you.

I love catching you by surprise

I love pretending that I love you and I'm your friend.

I've given you lots of comfort haven't I?

Wasn't I there for you when you where all alone.

When you where CRYING didn't you call me.

I was always there for you, WASN'T I?

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O, I love to see you TREMBLING in PAIN not knowing what to do.

I love to see you CRYING and SOBING.

Better still, I love to make you so NUMB you can neither HURT nor CRY.

When you can't feel anything at all, I'm so happy and satisfied then.

All I ask is you SUFFER for a long time.

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I've always been there for you

When things went well you invited me in

When you said you didn't deserve it, I was the only one that agreed with you.

Together we had a great time DESTROYING all the good things you had in your LIFE.

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Some people don't take me SERIOUSLY, I love them people.

I am such an EVIL, APPALLING, DIRTY DESEASE and yet I do not come uninvited.

You may choose me, as so many have and still do.

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Please choose me over that HIGHER POWER, FAMILY and FRIENDS.

Don't let that GOD thing; PEACE And LOVE comes between us.

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I hate all of you that do that 12 step programme and are in recovery.

All them dear FRIENDS that love and help you.

All these things weaken me.

I can't function properly, the worse thing is

I can't get close to you, to do my work.

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For now I must lie here QUIETLY and PATIENTLY.

You won't see me but I'm here.

So, until we meet again, if we meet again.

Next time it will be different worse, REAL PAIN and SUFFERING.

Like you've never experienced before

Remember I'm WAITING for you ALWAY'S."

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Your DISEASE OF ADDICTION