Straw that broke the camel's back

Where do i start?? Well i think ive been a compulsive gambler from the age of 15. Im 41 next week. Like most people my first bet was a winning bet. Now after been gambling for 25 years plus and close to losing 200k im here to tell you my story and hope it helps you in your recovery aswell as mine.

Ive gambled on anything. My addiction to gambling has basically ruined my life... Its cost me my youth but most importantly its cost me my family.  Ive deprived my children of things that kids should enjoy like toys and holidays but most of all ive lost time with them. Days out for them was a trip to Haydock park racecourse. Im so embarrassed to call myself a dad.

Ive stolen thousands from companies ive worked for without ever getting caught but that caused stress anxiety and sleepless nights. Thinking about going to prison if i ever got caught. 

Well 22nd December is a new start for me. That was the day the last piece of straw that broke the camel's back. Ive finally had enough of the gambling and the heartache ive caused to those closest to me.

Hope my few words help you when reading this and hopefully 3 days into my recovery it can only get easier. 

God bless you all and stay strong. This addiction can be beaten if you really want too

Paul