The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do

Hi, I did see your earlier post and was worried you might not have been able to build up the courage to tell your partner despite clearing needing to do so. I’m so glad you have now done so.
Now you have told him , you will have a big sense of relief whatever the outcome with your partner. 
When I told my husband about the amount I had squandered and debts I had built up, he was so angry and remained so for days. Then he would ease off but then another explosive mountain of rage would build up. It’s been a very hard journey. I won’t go into all my issues    but we are trying to work our way through.

Your own journey ahead isn’t going to be easy but if you really want to overcome it
I think the best thing you can do is to contact GamCare direct (they are seriously lovely helpful and non judgemental as they’ve seen most things before). They will be able to offer you the support you will need. Definitely also make sure you sign up to the self exclusion and blocking software. 
Request the counselling service GamCare offer, I found it so amazing and supportive and understanding. If you do all these things it will help show your partner that you really want to overcome your gambling problems and from a practical point, it will help you stop. Counselling is also available to partners and can help them make sense of everything and given them their own support.

But I think blocking software and self excluding is an essential first step as you won’t find it easy to just stop after all this time. You will need support with this, please take everything on offer. Whatever you do, you have to resist trying to claw back some money by doing a ‘last chance’ gamble. You won’t win it and it will undermine your efforts to recover. 

Remember the good things you have going! You have a good job and if your partner lets you stay, you can work out a good repayment plan with him. He sounds like a good man. Hopefully if you show that you are doing everything in your power to stop gambling, he will continue to support you. 
You can do it!!!! Yesterday was hard but today  is a new day and a new start on your road to recovery.
But please don’t think you can do it alone. Let GamCare help. Best wishes 

Thank you for your reply, I found it motivational to read and it really helped. Today has been a pretty good day, he woke up angry with me again but then calmed down and was supportive. I didn’t gamble although I had some free time so that was a good step.  I have also signed up to a GamCare course.  
I also hope you work through your issues, this will take time for us both so thank you for taking the time to offer me some support.

Hi Tina reading your story was like my own, I only told my partner on Sunday and was one of the hardest decisions I have made . I felt sick ashamed I can’t believe how understanding he was. Then I had to tell my family I have 2 daughters and 2 sons who are all working and doing amazing and they are great to me but I started asking them for a loan of money and not giving them it back making excuse after excuse only thing am glad about I payed my rent as soon as I got paid , I just used to sit and just cry and not want to see anyone. I really hope you can work everything out, I am the same as you joined up for the counselling  sessions so start on Monday good luck with everything xx

Hi Trish I’m sure you found it as hard as me, the total disappointment that you feel in yourself.  There is now a sense of relief, don’t get me wrong I still feel ashamed but at least people know and I’m sure you feel the same. My partner has been far more understanding than I ever thought especially due to the lies I told. Good luck to you too, keep in touch x