There's always a place to go

Hi

I had recently posted on another thread and started with a lengthy back story and maybe that was the wrong thing to do. It ended up being a case of self pity and self loathing “look at me i can admit it”. So i thought i would start a new thread of for myself, i think on the back of something i read earlier saying its easy for people to be GF and this is the start of a new beginning the day after they lose their monthly wage to gambling.

I am a compulsive gambler and have been for years who has lost his partner due to this awful thing, due to countless lies and let downs. My family didn’t know the extent of my gambling. Monday I completely came out to my parents and told them the whole truth and how long it had being going on for. Who were upset but fully supportive. Then I spoke to my ex (the mother of my children) and told her that it had never left me and i had constantly been gambling and everything i tried to hide or blame other people for was all on me.

I then self excluded myself from all sites using GamStop. And also went to my first GA meeting Monday night. Which was so refreshing that a room full of strangers hold zero judgement towards each other and can be so frank and honest.

My message would be put all measures in place you can as quickly as you can. First thing i had to do was to talk, saying it out loud and facing up to it. I will continue to go to GA meetings but i now also know I’m only ever 2 seconds away from my next bet. It wont be easy but i know i have started on the right path.

Keep strong everyone.

C