First post here, 2 year fight completely alone. Never told a soul apart from one anonymous online crisis live chat.
Put a freeze on my bank card, felt liberated, managed 3 days, felt free of anxiety for the first time, no waking up spiralling over what I’d lost the night before. Wanted to unfreeze so I could place a football bet (which is not where my big gambling problem lies) and I ended up on online casinos, right back where I started.
This wasn’t meant to happen to me. I’m a boring story of someone who won big one time and couldn’t stop. I know it’s a sickness in my head but I know nobody in my life could ever understand. The loneliness is crippling.
My freeze is back on and I’m trying to use this forum for encouragement and a reminder that it can get better.
Imo gambling has also been really bad for the last 3 years, I cannot shape the past- only the future. Stay strong.
Hi Chr23,
Thank you for sharing your story on the forum and being so open and honest about what you have been going through.
I'm sure you will receive some great support from others in the forum community, but in the meantime, do contact an adviser through our helpline (0808 8020 133), or through our netline if you would like some further help and support. Both are available 24/7.
I hear you have kept your gambling secret for a long time, but you don't have to manage this on your own anymore.
We are here for you.
Take care,
Phoebe
Forum Admin
This is the lonely part of this illness. With us we are suffering in silence. Its hard for others to understand they just say well just dont do it or the worst one is why have u done that and i dont even know myself so trying to explain its impossible. Its hard to talk to people about it. Thats why im here. I have been stuggling but 3 days now and no bets. Now with focus i need to be saying the same in a week then a month then a year. Im sick of myself infact no one can be more dissapointed with me than i am of my own actions. I am now keeping positive and pushing the failures behind me so i can move forward.
That two years can easily turn into twenty if you're not careful. Give your access to money to someone else that you trust. Stray the changes now. I'd hate to hear you're still doing it this time next year. I've been doing it for twenty years. It's completely ruined me.
@forum-admin thanks Phoebe, I really appreciate this.
@absentee thank you, I appreciate the helpful advice
It’s my first day on here and I hear you. I’ve been facing this alone for 6 years. Just started to open up to my family and have taken the plunge to stop.
it will be a long road.
We are not alone.
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