2017 Challenge

Hi all,

Checking in for the week. I need to be reset to day 1 though. I had a relapse yesterday but have self excluded from the website and can't gamble on there again.

Looking forward to this challenge now. I've spent the day reassessing things and realise that even though I feel like I'm at 'rock bottom' I've got too many things going for me that shows I'm not at 'rock bottom'.

Good luck all and keep positive!

Honk

Sorry on the late join in I didn't realise we had a new thread. Cheers to Gary for last year and to Oldham and Deano tor 2017. I've not gambled once since I joined this forum it's a great help knowing other people are smashing this habit as well. I'm checking in on day 266 x

Checking In - day 5.

Glad to be part of this team. Thanks, Suzy

Checking in on Day 6, almost one week. Finding it quite tough as the temptation has been there, but going to keep on powering through. 🙂 Going to start writing lists of things I need to do and when to do them, keep myself occupied!

Checking in on day 26.... Proud to be part of this challenge 🙂

M x

Hi guys. I was part of the 2014 challenge and managed to abstain for more than the calender year. Unfortunately 2016 didn't go well for me having fallen back into gambling...

As difficult as it is to overcome I wish to try again. I cannot remember the date I last gambled, however I have been free from it for a little while. I wish to reset my counter from the start of this year as it will give me a clearer indication as where I am. If I can abstain for this entire year I could be debt free for the first time in 12 years. I think I will start a new recovery diary also.

Thanks all,

Scambling

Just clocking in for my first week of the 2017 challenge. There have been challenging moments this week but as the days drop off I'm starting to feel more like myself. Gambling is still in my thoughts, from previous experiences it takes a good couple of months to fade to almost nothing but i'm in the right place, doing the right thing, with goal to work towards.

Wishing everyone well.

Day 8 wooo

Still gamble free check in. Embrace the positives.

Day 12 almost over and gamble free its payday and its already gone to bills so no gambling for me for atleast another week wahooo lol broke but happy mr bookies doesnt have it lol heres my weekly check in

Checking in, happy I've got through the week gamble free.
Makes me wobble when I read about people's big wins. Makes me think should I try to bet big, win big, wipe my debts out.
Have to convince myself it wouldn't happen, I'd just get into even more debt.
Amazing how just a few weeks off the slots changes your mental health status for the better.
Onwards and upwards. . .

Little miss lost do you not see the stories that people win big but also lose the lot and then get into debt surely that brings back some memories, makes me feel ill seeing some of the big wins too but to think they've lost that to makes me feel sick ! I've lost a lot but I'm lucky I haven't won big like 23 grand just to lose it , although I've work hard for a solid 7 years through my gambling period and to think I've gambled most of it away is not good!! Keep going keep your head up and focus on being your self!

Hi guys just a little message to say well done for being strong I know this isn't easy but what doesn't killl you makes you stronger believe me I felt like this has killed me but we're still here we are obviously big fighters

for anyone who's had a relapse in the last couple days, don't beat yourself up we've all been there it's not nice I know but just keep strong keep the will power cut the losses move on today is a new day! Your only human no one is better than you ! Don't let this tell you otherwise

And for people who are still going strong with no bet well done today is a new day keep that good feeling not betting have a good day keep cool and calm , your doing great just think if you did bet how you'd feel and other people around that have suffered x

My first story in 2014 for anyone who's interested and would like to give some advice and feedback! ..

Hi everyone, I am new to this so please bare with me

my name is Reece I'm a compulsive gambler and I last bet was today,

this will be the 5th year that gambling has stuck with me and as usual as we all know it's the most disgusting horrible addiction

left feeling sick just want to curl up feeling suicidal just want someone to pull it away from you but just will not happen,

i started gambling at the age of 18 never knew anything about gambling just used to go in there but a football bet on which would be a pound or two on each bet totalling to a maximum of 10 pound wasn't something we needed to do was just something me and my friend done for the ****** every Saturday before we went to our own match to play was nothing serious I did t even know gambling could become an addiction, one day he phoned me saying oi Reece found this new thing in bookies on machine (didn't even know there was machines you could play didn't even see them when I went to do a football bet) I said ok let's check it out have a laugh and that, so we got there he introduced me to the game roulette showed me the in and outs put a pound in the colour put a pound on low high even odd bla bla so I span after I had my bet I put twenty pounds in the machine that day I'd won 120 pounds on this machine I thought bloody hell this is good went back home told my family was happy for me but they didn't know anything about it either so went again probably at the weekend went to put our footie bet on we put 20 each into same machine second time I played on roulette we walked out in half an hour winning 500 pound each we both looked at each other walking out jumped with joy thought this was free money couldn't lose as the weeks were going on and that's when I started to realise I started losing still didn't feel like I was addicted kept telling myself we'd win again and again and again from this day I wish I walked in and lost that 20 pound I done first off,

got a job with a family member hairdressing was good looking ahead thinking growing up got a job bla bla

Well I didn't reAlise I had a problem until I lost my wages for on an apprenticeship wage lost 306 in half hour and then the stealing out people's purses and tills I then was caught out and sacked by my own auntie how disgusting would of thought I learned my lesson by now I can't really remeber much since then part from the last year,up to debt now mum got me loan to pay back what I owed her and what payday loans I got I was single then so had no girl to answer to ,

im now in a relationship was doing much gambling but was still there in back of my head still do football bets but up the stakes to 20 40 pounds a bet!

i got in contact with a one to one councillor I got a job in London drylining earning some good money was happy with the pay but the debt still there paying out every week worrying about paying out not having much to myself and if you know Liverpool st there a few bookies round there so hardto keep away thinking I could get back what I payed out which is never the case making up excuses to girlfriend and mum that I couldn't go out because I had no money saying I left my wallet at work over the weekend things wasn't adding up feeling sick every time I had to lie every time i lost my money to money grabbers can't blame anyone but myself ! I had one blip while I was one to one counciling which I told my girlfriend I only done 200 pounds which she was ok with didn't go mad told her I wouldn't do it ever again any way​

Come up to Christmas 2013 week before lost all my wages and all money I had for Christmas pressies auntie lent me money to help 600 pound was lent to me got presents everything was good but still debt was there the worry was still there!! This is killing me

i got a rebate of 2and a half thousands had some money from wages so had about 4 grand in my account thought brilliant can pay this and this but that worrie of not having that amount after I've payed everything off was still there payed my girlfriend to go away this year was happy I done something for her come to her holiday she needed a bit of help for spending money two days before she went away I had 600 pound left to my name which would of been for her to take after I spent all that 4 thousand went to the bank asked for the money then I had that urge well I do this see if I can some more for myself she didn't know I done all that money so I had no choice to give her that 600 or she would find out I've done I was acting strange last few days she asked for a statement to see if I done anything wrong I refused and made bull**** up so she couldn't have one I thought she would let it go but she just wouldn't I had to tell her in the end I couldn't give her money on the holiday she was going to in a couple of days she went mental at me we couldn't be together all that stuff was heart breaking we are still together as I promised not doing it again and I went to ga but got a new job I got now can't always make it cause I do night work too ga is good for me but I haven't been for 5 weeks I lost another 400 pounds last week and the acting strange was happening again the guilt the worrie in case she found out again and would defiantly leave me statements were asked for again told her even more rubbish to get my self out of showing her one telling her if you can't trust me we can't be together the truth finally came out but she still sticking by me but even after that I still went on to gamble I feel like nothing is stopping me even the words from her if it happens again we are done for good I can't lose her she is my everything but the money I'm paying out is still a big worrie only 300 a week but still eating at me it's to family so it's not too bad of worrie! so now I need something which I can do by internet everyday chat rooms which you have on here which is great just talking bout problems and people who are going through what iam give me a reminder not to do it please please help me guys I need this to happen

ive even now stolen money from my parents which I can't even think to what I've done just to try and get that money back I put 100 pound Into win 900 just to back in and now I'm chasing to get that back and the money ive stolen!

I'm sorry if a lot of this doesn't add up but I'm trying to tell you my story in a rush I'm not the best at wording things either!

Checking in on my day 11!

This is the most positive I've felt about quiting in a long time!

Hope everyone has had a good week so far!