Back to square 1 :-(

Dont get down I stopped for a year , then Gambled on fixed odd machines and lost £300 over a few days , stopped for another six months and another £300 to £500 over a week period now 3 months have gone by £1000 in the bank after years of continous gambling , broken up family life , becoming homeless living in a tent for 2 months ! after seeing Ben Hur and seeing the Romans playing for lots behind Jesus on the crusifxiction scene my conclution is "Gambling" its Evil but not the indervidual but the victims US . You will beat the 120 days you dont need luck thats been the problem ! be happy with what you have ,

Hi n22cks.

I think you have to deal with it as a learning experience of a stage of the process. It can be broken down into stages where you possibly thought that a good dose of willpower is enough. Im glad you have admitted to a problem but the addiction has to be treated with the fear and seriousness it deserves.

I feel you need to talk the bit through about how the bookies door was a way in again. Ideally you should have covered that bookies by ensuring you were self excluded and did not feel welcome there.

You have proved again what happened to us all...in the click of the fingers we will be through that door again. I know that it can lie dormant within us and the blocks must be in place.

Have you self excluded ? I have to say that you will continue to relapse if the way is open. Spend a day of pride handing in that form in everywhere and calmly telling the staff you dont want to be there again.

It may be that you dont yet realise the power of mind control. We ignored the odds and had the addicted notion that everything will come right next time. Of course it wont and thats why I intensely dislike the gambling industry.

So you cant get ill beating yourself up but you must learn something more from this and move on....Did the gambling help....NO yet again so focus on that.

4 months is a good positive step but it will come to an abrupt end if the time money location triangle is not firmly broken.

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

Thanks for your responses guys, much appreciated.

I thought I could control the gambling with will power alone but it wasn't to be sadly. I'm going to resort back to not carrying money to cut out the urge.

If I can manage another 4 months gamble free I'll be a happy man..... here's to day 1 🙂

Hi sorry to hear that you had a relapse, so come on pick yourself back up, put all the blocks in place and look forward to be gf again and remember how good it felt. X